wishfulthinking

I have been working too much. All work and no play makes Chris a dull boy.

It seems to become rather annoying when you feel like your day at work consists of being the monkey, doing the trick and getting the banana.

One of my friends has recently offered me a trip around the world for two years on a sail boat. I was a...
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Well, I decided to come back for a while and see what everyone is up to. It appears all of my old friends here on Suicide girls have moved on, but it's always great to meet new ones!

I also read over all of my old posts. Funny how your perception of life changes so much in just a few years, but your core always...
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Well, my account is going away soon...and as much as I'd like to say I'll miss it, I really don't think I will, but to everyone that was cool and those of you that left responses, take care and may you all find happiness in your lives...

FUCK!

Life is piecing itself together somewhat strangely. I don't really know what to make of things. I feel like my mind plays tricks on me and I can't even trust my own feelings.

I don't really know how I feel about things and I feel extremely unbalanced.

Although, I believe I should be happy, I am not. I don't feel like anything ever satisfies me....
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Well, this is my new profile pic. I'm kinda funny looking I suppose, but what can you do?

Life has been a rollercoaster. A really shitty, rickety, piece of crap, rollercoaster. It started the day before I was supposed to leave for SLC to visit some family. Not the greatest place in the world, but I was at least going to see my 13-year-old brohaus....
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This morning I got a call from my best friend on my cell on the way to work. I was talking to him for about two minutes when... it dies.

I then figured out that my roomate used my phone the night before and like so many times before, didn't plug it in after draining the battery.

What a bastard...

Life is really boring...I'm doing everything I want...or at least most of it, and still it all just feels the same...

So, it's been a long time since I posted. I look nothing like my picture anymore and I have successfully been unemployed and still living life just the same for the past month and a half. Hopefully I'll be able to keep it up, but I don't really see myself having a problem. It's kinda nice not buying back into the system and paying taxes,...
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I just watched someone get shot in Golden Gate Park. It's messing with me a bit. I know I will never walk through that part of the park again and not think about hearing the gun shots and seeing the guy go down.

The past three weeks have been the happiest of my entire life. I just moved to San Francisco and fell right into falling in love with life over again and living every day like it's your last. Things have been pretty great.

Chris

Well, I haven't been sober in like 10 days...the last 10 days have turned into a drug induced colma. Sometimes I think I should stop, but I don't really see any real reason to be sober ever again...