winona5

I have an overwhelming desire to make myself super pretty . . . i think i need a makeover

I'm starting to wonder if maybe I'm settling for a relationship that makes me happy most of the time but doesn't feel as fulfilling as I would have hoped because of the fact that I don't think it's possible to fulfill my hopeful expectations of a relationship ... and the fact that it hurts my heart to break her heart...

i've got to get back into the habit of being more active - after a year or so of neglect, i think it's about time to start making more of an effort on so many levels of communicating and connecting

hmmm ... welcome back me! It's been quite a long, long time ... I'll have to get reacquainted once again

sigh . . . single, yet again

.. .and this time it wasn't even my fault. . .

I had a dream last night. It kind of makes me wonder. And then i think, does that act of wondering make it so that it has to be?
sort of like, if you have to ask if you believe in something, doesn't that already mean you already believe it? That your just trying to reconcile your gut feeling with what your head is saying?...
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so, a week from today, I'll be preparing to leave for India.

I'm guessing the next two weeks of my life will be very interesting indeed.

sigh . .. my hopeful thoughts are lost. . .

I completely forgot how people can completely not follow through with things...especially when dealing with strangers over the internet.

...and so my search continues...

but you know what . . . i know it's possible, so all hope isn't lost

I just read my posts leading up to my most recent... ...creepy how things work out. I think I may have found exactly what I was looking for, down to the part where the person speaks spanish...i have to send a thank you out to the universe for that one

I think I might have just made a friend on craigslist...the serendipity of the entire situation is rather uncanny, I must say...lets just say, even though I'm a skeptic in so many ways, the Law of Attraction keep working for me so I can't help but to believe and just some scientific concept that out primitive brains can't quite grasp and understand completely.

hmmm, so here i am...with absolutely nothing to talk about....strange. Although, I have this overwhelming urge to type and type...so maybe I'll just type and type about absolutely nothing at all.

I'm still keeping my eyes open for that special friend that I can connect with on a non-romantic level.
Although, I think I might have to do more than just simply keep my eyes...
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sooooo....
I went away for a little while...
..and now I'm back!

yeah, not much to say. I guess I'll start the process of revamping my profile a bit, you know, updating crap...

for a time, I figured my brand spanking new girlfriend could fill in all the little gaps in my life...don't get me wrong, she's filled a lot, but not all of them....
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