breaking up is hard to do. i know that. i've done it many times, but... but. living with your current ex has to be the hardest thing i've ever done. i keep wishing we never moved in together. i wish i could just leave and hide out somewhere else for awhile but i'm not sure it's possible. my best friends live here. my closest friends. the people i always turn to. the problem is the people i always turn to are the people she turns to as well. at least she turns to them as best she can, she is very secretive.
right now she is downstairs with her current crush. we broke up a week ago. i wish they could meet up somewhere else. sure, it is innocent but it still hurts.
listening to neko case alone in my bedroom is my only solace right now. tonight i went to my parents house. they said they would make me dinner. i was excited. i was hungry. i received pasta with a mediocre tomato onion sauce. my mother is a good cook she just can't think vegan. i guess i shouldn't complain. it was made for me and that was nice but i wish i wasn't full now because i am craving something substantial. i can't imagine putting any more food in my body though.
time to dream of better times.
right now she is downstairs with her current crush. we broke up a week ago. i wish they could meet up somewhere else. sure, it is innocent but it still hurts.
listening to neko case alone in my bedroom is my only solace right now. tonight i went to my parents house. they said they would make me dinner. i was excited. i was hungry. i received pasta with a mediocre tomato onion sauce. my mother is a good cook she just can't think vegan. i guess i shouldn't complain. it was made for me and that was nice but i wish i wasn't full now because i am craving something substantial. i can't imagine putting any more food in my body though.
time to dream of better times.
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Living with a serious X when she's moved on to some new crush is soul destroying.... From my experience There's really only 2 options.
1.Get out ASAP... go home or go sleep on a best friends couch and get it all out. The anger, pain, the crying, the sense of loss, ....Otherwise it revisits you every moment you step back into the house and breathe in that home, that never feels like home... Because her love is linked to that place... AND YOU NEVER HEAL.
2.Wait a minute...Why hasn't she done the right thing and moved out????? Been a good X in the end, Followed the campfire rule of, " leaving a person better than you met them." I.E. Realised your hurt, her responsiblity for that hurt and more importantly YOUR personal worth. AND... Actively given you back your sense of space and a place to heal...
I don't know her... or your situation but... ( feel free to blast me if I'm out of line here ) from the entry that strikes me as really user girl shitty to camp out inside your lines while sleeping with the other side.
Take care... Be safe.