up the irons

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I've been in an unexpected metal mood all day, and listening to a Spotify radio station I made based on Maiden's The Trooper.

It's been really great. A lot of Dio, Judas Priest, Blue Oyster Cult, and obviously Maiden. It's stuff I'd classify closer to the "serious" side of the metal spectrum, far away from the hair bands, which live way down on the other...
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muzo:
🤘🤘🤘🤘
dave2338:
Sounds good, i love it. I'm with ya.

every day is a struggle against despair

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I spent almost the entire day, yesterday, working really hard on something really awesome that I can't talk about.

It felt so good to be working, to be creating something I know will eventually entertain people when it's released. It was several days of prep and several hours of work, and I am grateful for every minute of it, because during the time I was...
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veenine:
Thanks for sharing... stay strong! I slip into the same funk sometimes and its so hard to climb back out of, i feel you ❤️
elixic:
My unease has yet to manifest as despair, or at least not feelings of despair, sometimes it's feels kind of like the recognition that a terminally ill patient has when they finally accept that they will die soon, other times it's nothing like that at all and I'm hopeful. I haven't seen my friends in months, but I am lucky to have an awesome partner, a wonderful son, three adorable kitties, and two derpy doggos to keep me mostly sane during this time. I guess I'm trying to say that I empathize with everyone who's going though this time and feeling unsure, sad, scared, hopeless, trapped, or whatever else they are feeling because it really is hard. I do have hope though, most of the time. I hope you have found some hope too. Thanks for sharing!

No child deserves to be treated the way the man who was my father tre…

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Father’s Day is tough for me. I don’t have a dad, because the man who was my father made a choice, when I was a child, to be my bully, instead.

For my entire life, this man was implacable, inscrutable, and entirely unwilling to have any kind of relationship with me … yet he still felt entitled to my adoration an attention. Every day was...
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littlejohn22:
i am so glad you turned it around, you make for one great father i am sure
fullfeeling:
I think your choice is dead-on.  That day isn't about your DNA donor because he was never your dad, as you've articulated so well.  I'm glad you've realized that it's really about you, but intellectual realization and emotional absorption are two separate things, and I hope that you can feel as deeply that Father's day is about you as you're forced to feel that it's not about him.

This quarantine has been tough for everyone, but it was especially ha…

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Nothing is more important to me in my life than to be the father I never had.

Since we came into each other's lives, I've worked so hard to love, nurture, guide, and cherish my boys. It's so important to me that I never make them feel humiliated, small, unworthy, unloved, or any of the ways my father made me feel every day of my...
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littlejohn22:
I agree, i got my first hug in weeks from my daughter and we were able to play Settlers of Catan as our province opens up a little.
fullfeeling:
Fuck me, I'm old: Wil Wheaton's kid is married.  Oh, also: nice entry.  God I miss hugging my mom so much.

I'm reading and releasing free audiobooks almost every day

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I don't know if any of you who follow me here also follow me on any other social networks, so for those of you who don't know already, this post is for you.

For the last month or so, I've been digging up really great public domain short stories, and narrating them, then releasing them for free on my SoundCloud.

Wait. I need to back...
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littlejohn22:
We loved listening to “what if?” You did such an excellent job

*screams*

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CDC: “CDC recommends wearing cloth face coverings in public settings where other social distancing measures are difficult to maintain (e.g., grocery stores and pharmacies) especially in areas of significant community-based transmission”

Me: I will listen to the professionals, the experts, and the scientists. I care about people other than myself, so I'll wear a mask to protect them when I have to leave my house....
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littlejohn22:
I really fear for you and your country folk, stay safe brother.
fullfeeling:
The "some reason" is unchecked nepotism paired with Republican Congresspeople who are so venal that they're openly willing to watch not just the country but their own standing burn to the ground for short term gain.  We keep blaming the President for his actions, but the Framers gave us a solution for this inevitability.  They were even clever enough to set up the system so that the check on a tyrannical executive was in the self-interest of the two other branches.  They just never imagined that a majority of both Houses would be willing to give up their own power so a dictator could shamefully use them as sock-puppets.  I hardly blame  Trump for being his evil self.  He was always a snake, never lied about it, and never really wanted this job.  I blame Congress much more. Trump may be the most incompetent person in our government, but he isn't the most evil person in our government because he's not smart enough: McConnell is.

If you are, like me, anxious af right now, this is for you.

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I don’t know about you, but I feel anxious and wound pretty tightly. It’s not great, Bob.

So I’m being the person I need in the world. This is for me, and for anyone who needs it:

  1. * Take a deep breath. Hold it and close your eyes for a few seconds.
  2. * Gently exhale and feel the breath leave your body. Inhale, and feel...
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turtle:
❤
phianixx:
This is what I do a lot of the time and I'm always encouraging the 3 positive things, but even I lost my way lately... So I appreciate this more than you know 💖
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