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Yeah, I know I haven't been around for a while.
It's been a bit mental lately to say the least.

Nothing much has changed since my last blog, I'm still finding everything with Alex really hard to deal with... Actually, more so this week. He moved out of our old place and into a new flat with one of his mates. And it just hit...
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hypersage:
Life does go on.

I know that you don't believe it, neither did I, but you will be ok. With or without him. It would be nice if he came back and everything was ok (just like it would be nice if I could forget and look at her without imagining what happened) but you are so much more than one half of a couple. One day, you'll realise how strong you are and you'll be proud that you came through it.

I'm here if you need to talk about it. Or anything else.
missaphex:
divinee wink
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Just a quick update today.

I've realised a few things lately...
I'm too nice to people because I crave their attention.
I let people walk all over me and take advantage of me because I'd rather have shit friends than no friends at all.
I decided that's going to change.
I'm cutting a whole lot of people out of my life, because I don't need...
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badrobot:
love the haircut - and we all have to go on our geek rite of passage type things
vermin:
It's a good job that woman didn't let me have that wine or I'd have molested you in your sleep and all tongue

And yeah next time you come up we are getting wankered and being total - I mean TOTAL - webcam whores. Srsly. U guise.

LOVE YOUUUUU!!! xxxx
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Hey.

Thanks for all the comments and messages, I'm slowly working my way through them at the moment now I'm feeling like my head's screwed on a (little) bit better...

I'm not killing myself.
But only because of my mum's reaction.
I couldn't do that to my family.
No matter how bad I think my life is, it wouln't be anywhere near as awful as...
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pystol:
Btw i just read your last and most recent blog posts and i have a good idea where you're coming from so if you ever need to chat like wing me a message or whatever
Xx
chaoslex:
Can you be my groupie for my band? Wow those are hot .
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Okay, so I feel as if I should offer some explanation as to why I haven't been around very much lately...

The truth is, I'm struggling.
Really struggling.

I wake up every morning in tears, wishing I'd have miraculously died in my sleep.
Every day is a battle, and I can't fight anymore.

I miss my Alex, but he won't take me back. And yeah...
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severin:
Hey,
I hope you're doing a little better.
Love your Mum, don't leave her x
miro:
they suck lots dont they *huggle* you gunna get naked anytime soon and lemme take pics of it?? x
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First off, thank you so much to everyone that commented my last blog. You're all so sweet. Things just got to me the other night, I was angry and upset and depressed and jealous and horrified all at the same time. And yes, it was over my ex. I really really miss him. I don't know what to do anymore, things are pretty difficult right...
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xzombiex:
you be as personal as you want in your blog
johnny_playmaker:
animosity will kick children of bodom's ass
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I feel like shite.
Absolute shite.

I was going to blog about my past week or so.
But to be quite honest, I can't be fucking bothered.
None of it seems to fucking matter.

skull skull skull skull skull skull skull skull skull skull skull skull skull skull

Warning: Incessant ramblings of a depressive maniac.

'Handle With Care' read the label across her chest.
Ripped to shreds, and burnt to the ground.
Defenseless, exposed and alone.

Nothing left but...
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johnny_playmaker:
can i come cheer you up with a blunt of sour diesel??
padre:
Love the new profile picture love love
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bhavok:
Glas things are okay dear..

Um, that last picture of you em, love love
bigz:
lol hell yeah
its cos im cool =p
xx
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Hey all smile

Wow, everyone's been soooo sweet to me since I returned, it's so nice being back!
For anyone that hasn't checked them out yet (and why fucking not?!), I have a new set of photos I took on Bank Holiday Monday, just me arsing about with a camera, nothing special.
But I'd appreciate some comments, constructive criticism is also appreciated! smile

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light_bringer:
Children of Bodom is a cool group. I haven't heard the new album yet. I'm gonna have to check it out. wink
light_bringer:
You might have to help me with your English speak. I love learning new slang. biggrin
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Hello boys and girls smile

Yup, it's Spider.
Or Wilona as I now like to be called.

I should probably explain why I've been absent for so long...

Basically, I've been having a really rough few months, breaking up with my long-term boyfriend, moving back into my parents house, looking for a new job, spiralling back into depression, all sorts of shit.
I've just had to...
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i_am_brucelee:
glad to hear you are back! and hotter than ever i might add. if thats even possible
pystol:
haha thank you
NO ITS MINE.
Ahh now i want another pizza damn you.
I have a dip left maybe i could recreate the essence somehow?
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Hey.
I just wanted to apologise to everyone for not really being around very much.
Things are just a bit messed up at the moment.

I'm unemployed, dossing around and partying mostly.
My family act like they're ashamed of me.
Everyone wants to have a little dig at me, everyone wants to tell me what to do and how I should be.
I'm fucking sick...
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puff:
so what do we have to do to get you to get ya arse back here?

don't make me beg!

x