wilona

Because there are some things better expressed with music...



I must apologise for the number of depressingly emo blogs I've been posting the last few months. I know it's no what anyone wants to read. But for some reason I feel like posting these things might just lift some weight off my shoulders.

I've got a lot of thinking to do. I've been trying to keep busy to distract myself from what's really going on, which has left me slightly wrecked and confused. I'll be alright though.

I've realised I have a lot to be happy about in my life, I just have trouble seeing it sometimes.

The last few months have been somewhat strange for me... Discovering that there are people out there that want to spend time with me, people that think highly of me, people that get what I'm all about... It's all a bit overwhelming, and I have trouble letting myself accept those things, trying to convince myself that they're not true and people must just have some other agenda.

I guess it just baffles me because I'm not exactly used to it.

I was never popular growing up, and I never felt like I could be myself around anyone. I thought I'd found my world when I met Alex. He got me, and he liked me what for what I was. When everything changed, I thought I'd never again meet anyone that would like the real me, let alone love me.

But I guess things are changing again. A year ago I was happy and living with someone I loved very much. Today is somewhat different. I'm only just realising that different isn't necessarily bad.

I've started a new chapter in my life. I'm not the girl I was a year ago. I'm different. Good different. I'm stronger, more confident... even if I don't feel it all the time. I like the new me. And I think a few other people do too. I hope so anyway.

I've rambled on long enough.
Cheers for reading again guys.

New pics soon.
xxx
Wil