wilona

Just a quick update today.

I've realised a few things lately...
I'm too nice to people because I crave their attention.
I let people walk all over me and take advantage of me because I'd rather have shit friends than no friends at all.
I decided that's going to change.
I'm cutting a whole lot of people out of my life, because I don't need all that negative energy in it.
For once, I'm not so scared of being alone.
I have decent friends that will stand by me no matter what, I don't need these kind of dickheads in my life, what am I doing?
They can get fucked.

Rant over.

I'm still feeling a little fragile, but I'm starting to dust myself off and figure things out so I can stand on my own two feet for once. I'm positive about the future... Most of the time.

The only thing that's getting me down at the moment is being friends with Alex... It's just so hard. We're trying to be friends but I can't help having feelings for him. I still love him, he still has feelings for me, we have a great time when we're together... But he doesn't want to get back together... Yet. Apparently I have to wait and see what happens. I just wish I knew how long I have to wait... Waiting is painful >.<

Anyway, enough of that depressing stuff, I'm sorry.

GUESS WHAT I DID AT THE WEEKEND?
Apart from taking stupid amounts of various illegal things, I went all the way up to the North of England to finall meet my good friend Vermin
We drank wine and watched The Boosh and ate food like little piggies YAY!
But I was a lame-o and kept falling asleep haha

Oh and...
We didn't cam whore
I meant to... But I forgot.

I SLEPT IN VERMIN'S BED

OOOOOOH and
I have new hair
It's meant to be a lot brighter but I didn't buy enough bleach....I'll be redoing it soon though so expect new pictures in the next few weeks





OH
and
I wanted to show someone this.
I don't know why.
It's one of my most treasured possesions...
9 and a half hours in the freezing rain but it was all worth it
Johnny Depp, Alan Rickman and Timothy Spall.
I'm such a fucking geek.



P.S. Pystol well made me want to make a video blog, so like... Give me some ideas of what to do / any questions you want answered... Or something Keep it clean peeps.

I'M LISTENING TO HANNAH MONTANA.
FUCK YOU.