Today was Lynn's birthday, so trish and I bought some heelys for us all; it'll be like a chem-gradschool heelying gang... like the hells angels, only not quite. Its totally the best gift evar (and by extension, we are the best friends evar). Its hella fun, I kinda like gliding from place to place (difficult while drunk), the head of the department saw us wheel in and told us not to piss off the janitorial staff, so we promised to go to a building not used by the chem department (lol), all in all, my legs are cramped and I'm feelin fine, I should probably stretch or something... haha and YES they DO come in adult sizes. And I totally rock at heelying... I mean... I'm no 8-year old, those little bastards are like sean white, but then again, I've seen freaking pre-teens a thousand times better than I am at snowboarding, so i suppose I'm not all that suprised.... its still fun!
In other news, I met the infamous josh, he seems nice; but, I can totally see what trish is talking about, he's like a more cohesive/intellectual version of crazy john...
Jenn's coming day after tomorrow, and I'm cumming shortly thereafter, haha, yay!
We're also getting ethiopian food, that'll be fucking delicious, I'm considering getting baked before going; but, chris'll be there and I'm not sure if I want to have him know I smoke, I dont mind if he thinks I smoke; but I'm hesitant to take it to the next level... that's not even considering that I should probably study for my anal chem midterm on monday.... what's 20% of my grade anyways? its not like I could get ejected from grad-school like last month's egg-salad if I get a C... oh wait, its just like that.
I think I'll do fine, dr v posted all kinds of handy shit to help us prepare for her test, I think she understands she's teaching a bunch of chemists who would rather gouge out their eyes with a rusty spoon than read about circuits and shit... I mean, I understand that its important and that it ABSOLUTELY is relevant to my research; but, then again, I'd rather not have a test on the shit... I mean, c'mon man... its funny, i wasnt there for 1 lousy lecture, and I have NO IDEA as to what she laid down as out fundemental philosophies when it comes to transistors/MOSFETs, I mean, I know how they work and all that; but if she asks more qualitative questions I'm not sure what to say besides "they're electronically controlled switches"... honestly, I'm not sure what she wants to hear... seeing the format from last year's test was handy, hopefully it'll be similar, I anticipate just 1 question on op-amps though, professors love fucking op-amps...
So, I've been thinking alot lately about my chosen field of chemistry, honestly I'm starting to forget why I chose bio-analytical over synthetic organic... I loved the idea that I could create something, I go into the lab and make something, I make something that has never been made before... it affords a certain satisfaction, so why the heck am I doing this analytical nonsense? (not that I've done anything in research since early/mid september) I dunno, I guess I've come to peace with the fact that synthetic-organic still turns me on (and how!) But I KNOW it'll never be worth it... I've huffed solvent for the last god-damned time, fuck o-chem and its triflate/cyano heavy-metal complex mediated bullshit. That shit'll kill you (no... really.) so to hell with that, actually; now that I think of it, there are plenty of compelling reasons to NOT do that. Teratogens are for suckers, my kids wont have flippers... at least... not if I have anything to say about it.
I kinda like my adviser's intensity, he has an attitude that says "I'm not here to fuck around" and I REALLY like that; but then again, I'm not sure if this is the best environment for me, I'm hesitant to make any final decisions; but then again, I'm known far and wide for being indecisive.
I hate that I've lost my ability to communicate effectively in an academic way. college trained me to do it; but then, once I was in the working world, for 2 FUCKING YEARS I was brow-beat into dumbing down the way I talk, and now I have to go back to it again... I'm so sick of this shit, why do people give me shit for not talking "scientifically"? I had to work alongside a guy with an IQ of ~ 85 for so long that I'm not sure I even know HOW to interact with anyone anymore, much less interacting with academics on an even level... should I even be here in the first place? bah! fuck! and drat!
In other news, I met the infamous josh, he seems nice; but, I can totally see what trish is talking about, he's like a more cohesive/intellectual version of crazy john...
Jenn's coming day after tomorrow, and I'm cumming shortly thereafter, haha, yay!
We're also getting ethiopian food, that'll be fucking delicious, I'm considering getting baked before going; but, chris'll be there and I'm not sure if I want to have him know I smoke, I dont mind if he thinks I smoke; but I'm hesitant to take it to the next level... that's not even considering that I should probably study for my anal chem midterm on monday.... what's 20% of my grade anyways? its not like I could get ejected from grad-school like last month's egg-salad if I get a C... oh wait, its just like that.
I think I'll do fine, dr v posted all kinds of handy shit to help us prepare for her test, I think she understands she's teaching a bunch of chemists who would rather gouge out their eyes with a rusty spoon than read about circuits and shit... I mean, I understand that its important and that it ABSOLUTELY is relevant to my research; but, then again, I'd rather not have a test on the shit... I mean, c'mon man... its funny, i wasnt there for 1 lousy lecture, and I have NO IDEA as to what she laid down as out fundemental philosophies when it comes to transistors/MOSFETs, I mean, I know how they work and all that; but if she asks more qualitative questions I'm not sure what to say besides "they're electronically controlled switches"... honestly, I'm not sure what she wants to hear... seeing the format from last year's test was handy, hopefully it'll be similar, I anticipate just 1 question on op-amps though, professors love fucking op-amps...
So, I've been thinking alot lately about my chosen field of chemistry, honestly I'm starting to forget why I chose bio-analytical over synthetic organic... I loved the idea that I could create something, I go into the lab and make something, I make something that has never been made before... it affords a certain satisfaction, so why the heck am I doing this analytical nonsense? (not that I've done anything in research since early/mid september) I dunno, I guess I've come to peace with the fact that synthetic-organic still turns me on (and how!) But I KNOW it'll never be worth it... I've huffed solvent for the last god-damned time, fuck o-chem and its triflate/cyano heavy-metal complex mediated bullshit. That shit'll kill you (no... really.) so to hell with that, actually; now that I think of it, there are plenty of compelling reasons to NOT do that. Teratogens are for suckers, my kids wont have flippers... at least... not if I have anything to say about it.
I kinda like my adviser's intensity, he has an attitude that says "I'm not here to fuck around" and I REALLY like that; but then again, I'm not sure if this is the best environment for me, I'm hesitant to make any final decisions; but then again, I'm known far and wide for being indecisive.
I hate that I've lost my ability to communicate effectively in an academic way. college trained me to do it; but then, once I was in the working world, for 2 FUCKING YEARS I was brow-beat into dumbing down the way I talk, and now I have to go back to it again... I'm so sick of this shit, why do people give me shit for not talking "scientifically"? I had to work alongside a guy with an IQ of ~ 85 for so long that I'm not sure I even know HOW to interact with anyone anymore, much less interacting with academics on an even level... should I even be here in the first place? bah! fuck! and drat!