willard7

Hectic and sad. And happy. And exciting with anticipation.

Friday night my old horse died. She was 36 and was just too old and arthritic--she laid down like she always does, but couldn't get back up. I'd seen that once before in another dying horse. We had a neighbor come over and shoot her (I couldn't bear to, really, even though I kept telling everyone...
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Well, after my last (very negative) post(s) I finally have some good, good news! I completed a WHOLE day back at work! The pain is so much less than it was yesterday--it really is so freakin' nice!

I'm able to go walk in the woods, and even though it's a bit chilly, I just drop off my t-shirt and grab my gun and go work...
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Hate is a strong word. When I was in middle school I learned that. When I thought I hated homework, Mrs. Esling informed me that hate was too strong a word. Hate is what the Nazis had for the Jews. Hate is the urge to destroy, to annihilate, to feel it in your bones and to seriously wish that whatever you hated did not now,...
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It's been awhile since I've updated. Healing is going well. I'm walking, driving my own car instead of a truck (I couldn't climb in and out of the low-sitting Metro very well), and I don't believe I'm bleeding anywhere anymore.

One more week off of work and I should be properly healed up. I get to pick up pictures of the operation tomorrow--sweet

Adios for...
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I got home from the hospital two days early!

Men, let me warn you--if you EVER are told you'll be getting a catheter "down there" you turn and run and just live through the pain! That was the WORST experience of my life! Even now that I can pee under my own power, I'm going like every 15 minutes. It's really quite exhausting!

Everything right...
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Wow, tomorrow's the big day.

I'm having my upper left kidney removed. I'll miss you all for the week I'm in the hospital.

I'll admit I'm pretty scared. There's a small risk that it's cancerous, a lil bit smaller risk that I could have complications and die. Well, maybe a bit larger--I'll be bleeding like a motherfucker.

Goodbye friends, associates, and casual readers! Wish me...
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Oh my friend, what time is this
to trade the handshake for the fist?

I fought the law, as some of you might recall. I won. I found out today that I was acquitted.

I also found out my best friend is moving to Springfield, Ill. With my other close friend's recent marriage and move, and most of the rest succumbing to "Evangelical Christianity," I'm...
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The surgery to remove my upper left kidney is scheduled for March 15--don't expect me to be too SG-worthy for a few days after that.

It's hard to really fathom, even now. I lived almost 25 years without a smidgeon of problems . . . not even any indicator that there was something different about me. Whatever happened two weeks ago though, it must have...
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News update:

I get to have surgery. My upper left kidney needs to come out. That'll leave me with only 3 operating kidneys.

You read it right.

I found out that I have four, count 'em FOUR kidneys. It's a birth defect.

A mutation. A benevolent one. An evolution?

As a God-fearing Catholic, I'm supposed to know that evolution is a joke and that the...
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So sick.

I've been laid up for four fucking days with a common cold! A regular, run-of-the-mill virus! Technology=USELESS.

I found an apartment! YES! Oh sweet Mary, YES! Now I just have to get it . . . and laid up with a cold isn't getting me this apartment. This is driving me pretty mad.