So last month on the most romantic day of the year I turned 30, and when I woke up I felt no different to when I was 29, despite the fact my brain telling me in the weeks leading up to it that it is a big fucking deal! I had put such a weight on my head about where I should be by this age, and looked at how I was nowhere near living up to my own expectations of myself. I have a career, which has stalled at the moment suffering with a little bit of confidence in my own work at the mo, still paying my parents rent trying desperately to save enough to a deposit down on a house and I still suffer from the occasional pimple on my face (I was told those would end when I hit my twenties!)
I don’t feel 30, I don’t feel how I think I should feel, I can only put this down to slow self-development, my working career didn’t kick off until I was 27, I didn’t lose my virginity until I was 24, I just feel I have so much to catch up on. There is this girl I like, who I think likes me back, but I am not what she needs as I’m not ready to settle down as of yet and she is, distance is also a factor, but that ship has already sailed but I really hope that we are going to be able to stay friends.
But in more fun news, I got myself a load of goodies for Christmas and for my birthday! Added to my growing collection of Power Rangers goodies and finally picked myself up a Nintendo 3DSXL which means I can play and catch up on one of my favourite game franchises Pokémon! Having stayed away from websites I have no idea of the new Pokémon that were introduced in X and Y so am having lots of fun seeing new ones in the game for the first time.
How do people deal with being mocked for their collections? Should I be embarrassed for being a 30 year old with toys littered around everywhere?
