wildseven

Unless things drastically change, this is going to be my last blog for a while. A long while. Hope to be back soon. At some stage. I'll probably miss going into Chat.

I don't know what else to do other than type. I'm just sad. Very sad. I'm so damn lonely. It's not fair. I just keep wishing that every time i go to sleep it will end. I'll wake up and my whole life so far will have been a bad dream. But that's not gonna happen. Regardless of what i hope i know i'm still stuck with what i have. Stuck with nothing. Stuck with loneliness. Stuck with myself. Is it too much to ask to just have someone to hug? I've never held a girl's hand. I've never touched a girl. At all. Felt a girl's warmth. I'm not talking about anything sexual. Just companionship. Something other than just myself. I can't last much longer like this. It's too much. Not enough. I can't be alone anymore. I'd rather not be at all, than be alone anymore. I just can't. I've reached the breaking point. If i could just have someone for one night i'd be happy. I could die happy. Just to lie with someone, anyone. And. And. And never wake up again.