i feel like such a stupid lost kid right now...i just thought ide vent...i guess thats what this thing is for anyways...i tried doing that but felt kind of naked. and not willing to say it all..but ill give it another chance
i woke up way too early today, so that meant alone thinking time....and whenever im by myself i easily get sucked into this different reality, where thoughts and feelings get scrambled but ideas and concepts are created so its not all that bad sometimes....but im left in this almost rambling state of uncertainty and confusion that usually goes no where and ends as soon as human contact comes into the picture... almost everytime when this happens i always feel like im left a little bit more distant from my actual world... which isnt a bad thing, i suppose, and its not a good thing either....its strange how the human mind goes through such "trips"...up and down..up and down..up and down....im not really into this whole "blogging" thing but i really needed to write things down so i thought why not...i went to sleep at 3 or 4 and woke up at 7 this morning..almost feeling refreshed and "ready to go"...which is weird because last night i drank a little so that would usually mean that i should be asleep till at least one..but this morning i heard my brother taking a shower in the next room, woke up..and i stayed awake...i just couldnt go back to sleep...after a while of boredom, i decided it would be a good idea to go to the beach, but then when i found no one to go with..i found myself in the same state of solitude...i figured that it shouldnt stop me and had thought about going to the beach by myself but then realized that it would probably be a stupid idea even though i would love to feel the sun on my face and sand underneath my feet and see the ocean straight ahead and think "wow thats alot of water right in front of me..the ocean...haha"...stupid stoner thought...but seriously..the world amazes me sometimes...but yeah...such a strange feeling morning....i woke up and decided to eat fruit? what the fuck is that? haha....so i ate some mango, grapes, apples, and peach slices....very strange craving...i would usually want something more endangering to my health...or water..i love drinking water in the morning for some reason..hmm..here come more rambles..i think i need to start opening up to people a bit more..im always a certain distance away, and its kind of saddening...i mean its good sometimes because people can be jackasses and not really give a fuck about you, but not all the time...and thats where i screw up..especially in opposite sex relationships ha...but thats a completely different story that im NOT going to go into this morning...well i probably will..but ill keep it to myself.....oh and i might be posting some music on my myspace music page sometime soon..so thats good...nothing special..just noise i suppose..but its nice to get it out there..its almost like this vent hah...hmmm..i think i might actually go to go back to sleep now...so yeah.. im done rambling..
i woke up way too early today, so that meant alone thinking time....and whenever im by myself i easily get sucked into this different reality, where thoughts and feelings get scrambled but ideas and concepts are created so its not all that bad sometimes....but im left in this almost rambling state of uncertainty and confusion that usually goes no where and ends as soon as human contact comes into the picture... almost everytime when this happens i always feel like im left a little bit more distant from my actual world... which isnt a bad thing, i suppose, and its not a good thing either....its strange how the human mind goes through such "trips"...up and down..up and down..up and down....im not really into this whole "blogging" thing but i really needed to write things down so i thought why not...i went to sleep at 3 or 4 and woke up at 7 this morning..almost feeling refreshed and "ready to go"...which is weird because last night i drank a little so that would usually mean that i should be asleep till at least one..but this morning i heard my brother taking a shower in the next room, woke up..and i stayed awake...i just couldnt go back to sleep...after a while of boredom, i decided it would be a good idea to go to the beach, but then when i found no one to go with..i found myself in the same state of solitude...i figured that it shouldnt stop me and had thought about going to the beach by myself but then realized that it would probably be a stupid idea even though i would love to feel the sun on my face and sand underneath my feet and see the ocean straight ahead and think "wow thats alot of water right in front of me..the ocean...haha"...stupid stoner thought...but seriously..the world amazes me sometimes...but yeah...such a strange feeling morning....i woke up and decided to eat fruit? what the fuck is that? haha....so i ate some mango, grapes, apples, and peach slices....very strange craving...i would usually want something more endangering to my health...or water..i love drinking water in the morning for some reason..hmm..here come more rambles..i think i need to start opening up to people a bit more..im always a certain distance away, and its kind of saddening...i mean its good sometimes because people can be jackasses and not really give a fuck about you, but not all the time...and thats where i screw up..especially in opposite sex relationships ha...but thats a completely different story that im NOT going to go into this morning...well i probably will..but ill keep it to myself.....oh and i might be posting some music on my myspace music page sometime soon..so thats good...nothing special..just noise i suppose..but its nice to get it out there..its almost like this vent hah...hmmm..i think i might actually go to go back to sleep now...so yeah.. im done rambling..
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micajah:
You can't argue with Natalie Portman. Period!
einjunge:
i saw natalie portman's boobies. i'm so blessed.