title for tonights journal:
Don't try to solve serious matters in the middle of the night. -Philip K. Dick
i talked to 3 of my exs all in one night..kind of bizzar but nice in a way..i dont know to many people that can say theyre still good friends with their exs...anyways, one of them gave me that quote because they said it reminded them of me..ha funny stuff..
i got an appology that i didnt even see coming at all...it was kind of silly but it was nice i suppose, i dont know if it was really an appology or an attempt to feel better about something they fucked up on....bah..whatever...i kind of wish i could go back to those days...i was such a nice kid...i could definitly label myself a hopeless romantic back then...not so much now....more like a drunken romantic/asshole...pa dum ch!....no?
"she was invisible to some but not to the ones that matter...if only she could realize that the eyes she unknowingly held in the palm of her hand had a corresponding body,heart, and mind but no mouth..even if i died alone...and i was able to speak...i would have lived to give you that attention...i would love to give some that attention...life sucks when the simplest things become your biggest obstacles" -w.shakespear.
i think i realized/discovered/understood my current condition...ive been drinking all the time because all the people i know are pretty much idiots...and its definitely easier to dumb myself down than try to have a serious conversation with your "ordinary joe"...of course there are exceptions...but not too many...
i realized all of this when i was talking about faith/religion/science with an old friend of mine...just made me see that i couldnt do that with any of the people i go out and drink with normally...those people would be too afraid..which is sad and moronic...and then you do find someone that can hold a good conversation but then isnt understanding that there are millions of ways of viewing life..
"people get very pretentious about their own ideas and intelligence but hate to have to prove either of those things...easier to act superior than to risk being proven wrong or stupid"(i wish i could say stuff like that..i know i feel it all the time..i just lack the vocab. oh wlel..thats my own fault. anyways..)
its understandable that its not a good feeling to be wrong..but why isnt it? its all about perspective...the true intellectual always learns from his/her mistakes... i mean if you are wrong about doesnt that mean that you will soon get closer to the truth? its kind of a matter of elimination i guess you could say...wrong wrong wrong ....rigth! woo...people need to understand that...and people should be less cocky and idiotic and more understanding when people are wrong...theres no point in putting people down (unless they deserve it.. :skull
anyways...yeah i get drunk because im surrounded by morons...hahah how egotisticall is that? haha who cares..its true sometimes...
"there are no strong men,there
are no beautiful women. at least, you can die knowing
this
and you will have
the only possible victory."
- the great c. Bukowski
on a lighter note this weekend should be good minus the bear/ mars volta...woo!.. im actually feeling sleepy right now..woo x2! sleep is coming..ok im off to see if i can capture it before it runs away..
over & out.
Don't try to solve serious matters in the middle of the night. -Philip K. Dick
i talked to 3 of my exs all in one night..kind of bizzar but nice in a way..i dont know to many people that can say theyre still good friends with their exs...anyways, one of them gave me that quote because they said it reminded them of me..ha funny stuff..
i got an appology that i didnt even see coming at all...it was kind of silly but it was nice i suppose, i dont know if it was really an appology or an attempt to feel better about something they fucked up on....bah..whatever...i kind of wish i could go back to those days...i was such a nice kid...i could definitly label myself a hopeless romantic back then...not so much now....more like a drunken romantic/asshole...pa dum ch!....no?
"she was invisible to some but not to the ones that matter...if only she could realize that the eyes she unknowingly held in the palm of her hand had a corresponding body,heart, and mind but no mouth..even if i died alone...and i was able to speak...i would have lived to give you that attention...i would love to give some that attention...life sucks when the simplest things become your biggest obstacles" -w.shakespear.
i think i realized/discovered/understood my current condition...ive been drinking all the time because all the people i know are pretty much idiots...and its definitely easier to dumb myself down than try to have a serious conversation with your "ordinary joe"...of course there are exceptions...but not too many...
i realized all of this when i was talking about faith/religion/science with an old friend of mine...just made me see that i couldnt do that with any of the people i go out and drink with normally...those people would be too afraid..which is sad and moronic...and then you do find someone that can hold a good conversation but then isnt understanding that there are millions of ways of viewing life..
"people get very pretentious about their own ideas and intelligence but hate to have to prove either of those things...easier to act superior than to risk being proven wrong or stupid"(i wish i could say stuff like that..i know i feel it all the time..i just lack the vocab. oh wlel..thats my own fault. anyways..)
its understandable that its not a good feeling to be wrong..but why isnt it? its all about perspective...the true intellectual always learns from his/her mistakes... i mean if you are wrong about doesnt that mean that you will soon get closer to the truth? its kind of a matter of elimination i guess you could say...wrong wrong wrong ....rigth! woo...people need to understand that...and people should be less cocky and idiotic and more understanding when people are wrong...theres no point in putting people down (unless they deserve it.. :skull
anyways...yeah i get drunk because im surrounded by morons...hahah how egotisticall is that? haha who cares..its true sometimes...
"there are no strong men,there
are no beautiful women. at least, you can die knowing
this
and you will have
the only possible victory."
- the great c. Bukowski
on a lighter note this weekend should be good minus the bear/ mars volta...woo!.. im actually feeling sleepy right now..woo x2! sleep is coming..ok im off to see if i can capture it before it runs away..
over & out.
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Hmmm frazzled.. <-- an interesting word