Tonight felt a little bit more rough. I had 28 people there to see the show!!! My family drove up in my brother's limo from Pennsylvania. God, I love them sooo much. What an incredible family. They all have a retarded sense of humor...thank god. My 91 year old great aunt saw the show....sorta strange as it's a dirty show...but...ah..what the hell...
THanks to freyja, luna, nicole, and seth0067 for coming out tonight!!! I had my own cheering section!
I'm still sad though....I just wish that everyone could be on the same page sometimes. I'm lonely and without question ready to love and love and love ...and ready for the first time to allow myself to feel truly loved. I think that solitude is incredbly important....I just need to embrace it right now....and perhaps it will help me to learn more about myself. Perhaps I'm always running from myself...maybe that's why I'm an actor...who the fuck knows. Don't all actors hate themselves on some level...that's why they have to be other people...I've tried to convince myself that that's not why I'm in this business....that I'm really in it for the joy of exploring other peoples' lives. I'm blabbering at this point...and exceedingly tired and retarded. Maybe I'll go make some eggs. Get with it.
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i am sure you are kicking ass every night, and i hope to see you soon, both in the show and in person. i think you seem very loveable indeed.
that dinner invite is always there.