whitewidow

So after my Mother-In-Laws gave me the greatest birthday weekend I was riding on a high on the actual day Monday......that is until I started to realize that people who normally called or sent emails weren't doing that this year I was already missing Pete that day more than normal since he wasn't able to call (although I got an email which was nice) so I was looking forward to my friends and family contacting me. I did have some very sweet messages and Junnie even called to sing "Happy Birthday" on my voice mail As the day went on though I was starting to get a sinking feeling that I wasn't going to hear from as many people as I normally did. I was already missing my usual call from my Gramma knowing that now that she has passed I wouldn't hear from her ever again The Doctor I work for was set to take me out for lunch that day but we got so busy that those plans were moved to Tuesday (which was a blast!) but by the time I got home I was pretty much tainted on birthdays - not that I expected calls or messages....just hoping I guess. Since I was going home to an empty house (besides the animals) I stopped to get ice cream on my way so I could celebrate on my own. By 8pm it was clear that certian people had forgotten me and all I could do at that point was try to cheer up so this is how it went...........



This was my Dairy Queen Blizzard (probably the 2nd one I have had this year) with some candles in it that I got on the way home. I sat on the living room floor with the cats looking on waiting to taste the ice cream as I sang "Happy Birthday" to myself. I won't lie - as pathetic as it was I sobbed for a good hour after that as I curled up in a ball on the floor

I was lonely, hurt and depressed that some important people just disreguarded the fact that I was at home by myself more lonely than normal, hating my birthday and missing Pete. Turns out my Father-In-Law, his wife, and my Brothers/Sisters-In-Laws forgot. Main reason was because my sister-in-laws birthday was the following day and from what I gathered they were planning a get together for her. Oh well - I am too old to be pouting over somthing so stupid/silly and I should just move on with life.