whitewidow

Story of the day.....................

*WARNING*......WhiteWidow is having a hormomal break down today

I can't even begin to describe what is going on with me at the moment but it is getting frustrating One minute I am happy and cheerful and the next I am crying over the silliest things (like dropping an egg on the floor today)

Last night Pete and I were having fun reshooting my latest set (which was originally shot Sunday but due to poor lighting we had to redo it) but 5 minutes after the shoot I just snapped for no reason. Well - there is a bit of a reason I guess. I am Hypoglycemic which fucks with my system if I don't deal with it right away. Poor Pete......He didn't get to bed until midnight last night and that was only because I passed out on the couch

Then this morning my phone rings at 0530hrs which is never a good thing. Of course since it was so early (at least for me) I didn't catch it in time but when I got the voice mail I started to panic because it was Petes command asking if I knew where he was I think that is the fastest I have moved in quite a while to get to the bedroom to wake him up. It is totally an accident when one sleeps in from time to time but in the military there is no such thing as an accident. So now he is awating his repremand which will probably include him losing his privilages to come home every night and on the weekends I feel totally responsible about all of this because if he didn't have to shoot my set and deal with my outburst he would have gotten to bed at a normal hour

Now I will be lucky to get to see him any time between now and his graduation date (which is December 12th) and that is if they even let him continue on his course I guess that I shouldn't be sitting here feeling sorry for myself because now I get to spend my most depressing birthday (the big
30) sitting on my living room floor polishing off a bottle of rum by myself I guess I could always go to Disneyland on my own.......at least I get to wear a button for the day and I wouldn't have to worry about deciding what rides to go on with anyone.

I dunno - I attempted to submit my set this morning and managed to upload 80 pictures which is 80 more than I thought I would be able to but I have to say that for the first time waiting to hear if I was accepted or rejected I am not even really worried about it because the decision will be made without me and there is nothing that I can do now except hope for the best.

The next part is for girls only!

And for those boys who clicked on the spoiler even if it said for girls.....I hope that grossed you out!

Anyways - if you have made it this far I thank you for listening to my emotional rant

I hope everyone is happy and healthy