But no matter what I said, she wouldn’t listen. All she heard was the lies I made in order to pursue a dream of mine. And I knew she was afraid to hear the truth, too. My dream was more than a dream. And my heart was split between who I love and my sense of duty. My pride and loyalty was being pulled on...
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I’ve made mistakes as I tried to correct my mess with you. I shouldn’t have ignored her feelings as I tried to emphasize mine. And I shouldn’t have force my ideas of perfection on her. For awhile I thought to find the perfect you I had to find the perfect woman. I was wrong. The truth is no one is perfect. This is why to...
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Logic could only carry me so far within the chaos of my passions. Reason had no true place with you. It was a fool’s game, even the wise got beat out by fools because of you. They were blind and innocent to your ways and unconditionally followed you. I envied the fools because they had you. Wisdom had become my double edge sword. I was...
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Chapter 3:
You were seemingly too perfect. At times, you broke the rules of reality and put me in a realm of fantasy. Because of you, I lost track of my reality. With only a glimpse of what was real, I was in a constant state of delusion. After awhile, I couldn’t tell which was which. I was lost in your delusion. I had to...
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Speaking Soul to Soul
If you were to leave,
What would I do?
I can’t live without you.
I must have you next to me.
You made me believe in true love.
I love you.
I’m going to love you the way love is meant to be.
I’m going to show you the same things you have shown me.
I understand your wants and needs,...
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What It Means…
To fall deep in love.
When you hit the ground so hard
And yet you feel no pain.
When the things you do seem a bit insane,
You just go out of your way.
When you first meet,
You don’t know what to say.
But you know,
Because there is no need to speak.
When you look at her,
You get weak,...
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Chapter 2:
Then one day I found myself so deep in you. This feeling had surrounded me; covering me from head to toes. All I could feel is you. Suddenly words from the heart weren’t good enough. It had to be deeper then that. With courage being that last bit of strength I had, I bared my soul to her. I felt so naked then....
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That glimpse into her soul had me wanting more. It even had me wondering more. Why in that one glimpse she revealed so much but not enough? She had shown me something so fragile and precious. It wasn’t something I could take. She allowed me to touch that side of her. The light of her soul kept calling me closer. But I wasn’t allowed to...
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I had an unspoken devotion to a woman who hardly knew me. And even though we had never spoken before, her eyes spoke to me. I wanted to know more. I had to know more. She quickly became an addiction that I couldn’t satisfy. So I looked for ways to get closer. Even if it was just to feel her warmth, just to see her...
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So I found myself falling short of her. I was confused. I didn’t know if I was feeling infatuation or you at this point. I wasn’t sure because I’ve only heard of love and never felt it before. So I thought it was infatuation until I realized that this felt different. All I could think was this isn’t exactly infatuation and it did seem like...
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