Chapter 3:
You were seemingly too perfect. At times, you broke the rules of reality and put me in a realm of fantasy. Because of you, I lost track of my reality. With only a glimpse of what was real, I was in a constant state of delusion. After awhile, I couldn’t tell which was which. I was lost in your delusion. I had to find my reality again. The only way to do that was to test you.
I never knew what was to be revealed when I did test you. But I did learn it well. I hurt her and myself. As I cried out in my self inflicted pain, I sought both your and her forgiveness. And I tried to make up for it with what I said to her.
Soul Kiss, Soul Beginning, So in Love (Part 1)
So in love with you,
I don’t know what I would do without you.
I’m already missing you.
Come take me back in your arms,
And hold me tight.
You know how to treat me right,
Even though I don’t treat you the same.
Things are going to change.
When I first fell in love with you,
Your eyes invited me to unite two souls,
To fill that hole in my life,
And to stop my search for a wife.
At first I missed what your soul was trying to tell me.
And I wasn’t sure if you were the one,
But you won me over with a kiss.
I didn’t know I would fall so deep.
Now without you I can’t sleep.
As I keep the things that remind me of you,
As I hold on,
I don’t want to let go.
It’s my heart’s beginning.
I’m beginning to realize its lies.
It’s pain.
Why you cry.
What I’m not giving.
Why I’m taking.
Why my heart feels like its breaking when you leave.
My heart’s lust for love has me greedy for yours.
I believe you are my soul mate,
And my main reason for living.
My soul beginning.