Why?
Life would have been so much simpler if she wasn't so intriging. I cannot lie and say I'm not attracted to her. She has these lovely chocolate brown eyes, with natural dark rings around them from far too much undo stress in her life. When we speak I find myself getting lost in those eyes. I think she catches me sometimes; getting lost in her eyes and she smiles, which brings me back. She doesn't smile enough, so when she does it is something special.
She seems quite unhappy with her boyfriend, her job, and her life in general. But when she does smile, her face lights up and those lovely eyes sparkle framed in her perfectly plucked eyebrows that make her look most devious, like she knows something you don't. When I think of her, even now, that is how I picture her; smiling, her face all lit up with that hint of devilry in her eyes.
But, alas, it can never be. For in a few short weeks when her mother marries my father we will be kin, and certain rules cannot be broken. For no matter how desirable this girl may be, my father's happiness is far more important for his time of this earth is short compared to mine. So I will not persue this forbidden love for that reason alone. Even though there are far more reasons and an infinite amount of complications, I could overcome them all save that one. My father's happiness now with what he knows to be right is far more important to me, than my own future happiness with what could be...
No one ever said life was easy or simple did they?
I told her I will probably be a life long bachelor, and she replied, "you're too soft. I don't by that loner crap."
I'm still trying to figure out what she meant by "too soft."
rephrased:
Yeah, well. My problem is they DON'T bring the fuck. I haven't had that in 6 years. They bring me nothing but disappointment. If you won't say it, I will. "Women are overrated".