My birthday is tommorow....that sucks
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Nope, it IS bad. Some of it may be because I have been bringing things up a lot in the past month. But I was doing that thinking she was close to a decision. Now to find out after all this time she is still totally 50/50...
I don't know what to think anymore. I'm a very strong believer in fate but generally there's been...
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I don't know what to think anymore. I'm a very strong believer in fate but generally there's been...
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so the other night I am told was stress induced and things aren't that bad. We still need to talk more and she's also hit the point where she realizes its time to talk things out and find an answer.
This has been so odd. I can only imagine how badly this all comes off in my journal. What would you go through for someone...
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This has been so odd. I can only imagine how badly this all comes off in my journal. What would you go through for someone...
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The end is near...
well in one way or another. 9 months and I hearing still heart is torn and don't know what to do. That she's damned if she does and damned if she doesn't. That she's gonna look back on either decision.
I respect people's feelings and I know these decisions are tough. But still, how many people have faced having to make...
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well in one way or another. 9 months and I hearing still heart is torn and don't know what to do. That she's damned if she does and damned if she doesn't. That she's gonna look back on either decision.
I respect people's feelings and I know these decisions are tough. But still, how many people have faced having to make...
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Suck night. Tired of being alone...tired of finishing last to assholes. Tired of my heart and soul getting pummeled time and again. And now today I feel I've reached freak status. 
The ride has been going well lately and so for the most part my mood has been great. Its been one of those times when you really get back to the why of what you do and you feel good about it....at least I do. I'm making this thing work!
But good is not my mood right now. Eight months of this and things are...
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But good is not my mood right now. Eight months of this and things are...
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Ok, trying to figure out a tough one. Just recently discovered some potential bad news about an ex of a friend. Normally my friend doesn't want to know, but this one has the possibility of her running into him. Do I prepare her for this and tell her which will send her into orbit in anger over it? Or do I keep it quiet on...
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Break time finally. Been working about 3-4 weeks straight and now may be going home for a bit. I could use it....just feel mentally fuzzy.
A new ride has been born. The trains look like church pews on wheels....its definitely unique. Found out its a wild ride to just be at the top when the train leaves the lift.
*sigh* about time to start getting...
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A new ride has been born. The trains look like church pews on wheels....its definitely unique. Found out its a wild ride to just be at the top when the train leaves the lift.
*sigh* about time to start getting...
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Hasn't been too much to add. Days off are unknown at this point, but I always love being able to go hang out at the top of the lift for a break. The world drops away from you, and life is good.
Well really life has been good. Okie, even though every time I say that here, it seems to jynx it, but oh well....
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Well really life has been good. Okie, even though every time I say that here, it seems to jynx it, but oh well....
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So here I am, another night in Tampa. Well the same thoughts are on my mind as last night so....
So what do you believe in? What really moves you passionately....that you would fight for if it was ever taken away?
For me its what I do for a living. I help build roller-coasters. My particular job is the safety and control systems for them...so...
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So what do you believe in? What really moves you passionately....that you would fight for if it was ever taken away?
For me its what I do for a living. I help build roller-coasters. My particular job is the safety and control systems for them...so...
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Of course I read my journal. Its a place to bitch when something is bothering me but it also holds answers. I read what I have written from time to time and question where I am and what I'm doing. Sure there are plenty of choices I could make, and obviously I have chosen this particular path. There are parts of me that don't feel I can yet walk away for one reason or another. Doesn't mean it doesn't get tough or I don't get pissed. Doesn't mean I don't wonder why my life IS such a roller-coaster.
*shrug* and what can you think? Anne and I have worked through a lot and are closer than we ever have. The idiot is about gone after doing exactly as I figured he would and blowing every chance he had to hell. I just wonder still why I go through all of this. It makes me question a lot.
As for others' journals, *shrug*...as you can probably tell if you have read all of my entries, I haven't always been in a wildly social mood.