whatisthelight

If my memory serves me correctly I think it all started last Thursday. vikpreZ with his steadfast leadership capabilities and persuasive powers began hitting me with the idea of moving to LA. "That would be cool," I said. "I've been wanting to live there for a while but I don't know I need to see what my school situation is going to be like and......
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Poetry share. Judging from the last verse L.A. is definitely on my mind.

as the years go by
with the pass of every autumn
memories fade
& Novembers are forgotten
we had light
we had music
but we had not the time
to learn how to use it

wintertime's dark skies
the nights were growing colder
and our arguments
starting growing bolder
stole wood from...
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I don't think I will ever have children.

I'm tired of living my life for other people.

I'm tired. I think I need a nap.

Moving to LA is starting to sound better all the time.

Sometimes when I am riding my bike or walking down the street I think it wouldn't be so bad if someone hit me with their car just as long...
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Wow, Honky and I are totally into the same girl. Kind of weird but at least we have something to talk about now.

Just got back from watching the movie Control Room with Roxy and I must say all who thought that Michael Moore's Fahrenheit 9/11 was good should fucking run, not walk, run to go see this movie. Those who are put off by Michael Moore's reputation as an over the top sensationalist demagogue suffering from a serious cult of personality disorder should equally do the same....
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Hey everybody I thought I would update my journal because, well, I'm drunk and I always have bad judgement when I'm drunk and so yeah here goes... Went and saw Chuck P. tonight not to be confused with Chuck D. who is equally important but in an entirely different way. He was very cool, read a new short story that will be part of his...
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FUCK FUCK FUCK SHIT GODDAMN SHIT FUCK FUCK FUCK

ok, i feel a little bit better now.
sorry.

Well, just got back from CA and lets just say it was, um, interesting. I won't go into details because, well, I'm over it just simply over it. It was really nice to get home and have a chat about life and love with Adore when I got home last night. I was happy to help her out in whatever small way I could with...
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Since my last journal entry I am feeling much better, I hope all is well with everyone. Today has been especially helpful. I got alot of good sleep last night, I wrote one entirely new song and reworked an old song so far today. The music gods are being good to me right now. It was good to see some of the SG Seattle folks...
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Well... I fell I should update my journal. Thinking about alot of things lately. Last week scared me because of my alcohol induced suicide attempt on Wednesday night Thursday morning. When I am having a bout with depression and alcohol enters the picture it is not pretty. I wish that I could have those pass out drunks that are kind of funny or related to...
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What the hell happened last night??!! If anyone knows please fill me in because I think I blacked out after I threw up.

Ennui oh yes, one of my favorite words in any language. It has been what I have been feeling lately for sure since school got out for the year. Went to a party tonight I was almost ten years older than alot of the kids there. I think I might have been one of the oldest people in general. It was good though I got...
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