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"I will bid farewell, sever the ties
This is all I am, this is all that's left
Turn from deceit, the love of self is death
Deliverance is given to you

I will bid farewell,
Sever the ties

Now your heart beats black with deception, you have been forsaken
Leave behind (I will) all reminders of you

I will bid farewell
To all lies
I will bid farewell
Sever the ties

Searching, always searching
Hoping for a change
I will never be satisfied
I will now bid farewell

I will bid farewell
To all lies
I will bid farewell
Sever the ties" -Howard Jones of Killswitch Engage - A Bid Farewell

I did it. I said goodbye forever to her last night...

I'd love to lie and say that it was fine, but I still shed tears. It WAS the right thing to do... I WONT be a fuckdoll if emotions are tied in. And she's got the fuckin gall to tell me that we can't be friends... We've been broken up for months now while still being able to function around each other, but when I try to remove the ties of sex from the equasion, she just bails altogether? Fuck her. She needs to get over herself... Thats basically saying, "If I can't fuck you, I don't wanna know you." I dont know how I should take that... I must be a God of Fuck and a complete asshole on the side... News to me... (The asshole part, not the fuckgod part... I KNOW I'm good! )

Regardless of all of this, it's for the better. We desperately need to move on and we were only holding each other back from our very different lives... I'm now 100% free, and it feels like being reborn...

So enuff of the pity party, already. Time to get'a'drinkin!