The Good
Wow...I just realized last night that my birthday is this upcoming Monday. I was just getting used to the fact that I was 18 too
Not really sure what I want...This past year hasn't been great for gift ideas for me. But I was thinking of:
Sony CPA-9C Car Cassette Adapter or Griffin iTrip
Neither got great reviews, so I dunno which one I'll get...Most likely the cassette adapter. I need something though, as my CD player now refuses to play anything but a new CD, and even then, it is a reluctant little bitch that won't let me skip songs.
Other than that, the only things I could think of were:
-Internet connection in my room
-New gaming keyboard+mouse (Thinking the Logitech G15 keyboard, with a Logitech G5 Laser Mouse)
I also signed up for Last.FM. My page is linked below. Feel free to add me if you are on there.
The Bad
I think I am going to have a heart attack before the age of 25. It is ridiculous how stressed out I am right now.
I need to get out of school. Plain and simple. At this moment, it isn't my top priority, and it isn't what is best for me. I thought I could do it, but I was wrong. I just need to focus on getting healthy. Build my strength back up, focus on getting better, and then try school once I'm healthy.
So, I've been working my ass of this morning. I'm on the verge of being dropped from at least one of my classes, so I've been frantically sending emails to my teachers explaining my situation and trying to delay the inevitable. I'm going to talk to an advisor tomorrow, so I've been busy brainstorming about what to ask and how to ask it. I've been trying to get in contact with my insurance agency to see if I'll still be covered under my parents if I do withdraw for the semester...I just don't have 90K laying around to pay the bills every time I'm hospitalized.
*Sigh* 19 year olds are not supposed to be this stressed and worried are they?
The Ugly
So, my body is still rebelling. I don't know what is wrong with my back. It has gotten a little better, but still hurts like a bitch. The pain has moved from "everywhere," to my shoulders and the base of my neck. I can't get comfortable...I'm constantly changing positions and restless. Which means that sleeping is not an option. The other day I didn't fall asleep until after 7 in the morning, and last night I fell asleep after 2, and woke up at 6
And my allergies are giving me hell. Stuffy and running nose. Anytime I feel like breathing through my nose, I have to lie on my left side for a good five minutes for at least half of my sinuses to clear. And oh how I love the sinus headaches. *Sigh*
So, I've pretty much changed into a walking pharmacy. I'm taking two medications for allergies, an antibiotic for a sinus infection, Tylenol for the face pain and headaches, Proprinal for my back pain, inhaler for asthma, and I just started a muscle relaxing medication to help with my back...Which effectively turns off my brain and makes me go to sleep for a good two hours.
And to top it all off, I've got all the emotional and stress problems that come with my situation.
Yes. Yes, I do believe I am falling apart.
Wow...Just re-read the entry, and I so sound like a whiny bitch. Lol, oh well, that's me...Deal with it
Super Bowl
I'm routing for the Steelers to win the Super Bowl even more now. Seahawks fans have been bashing our boy "Lights Out" Merriman ever chance they get now. I hope the Steelers give em hell for their blasphemy! By the way, if you want to read a great discussion about the Super Bowl, I suggest you check out this thread: Go Seahawks!!! on my clan's forums. I post as PX_Phoenix for those of you who don't know. Our logic and arguments are flawless...lol
You'll see.
Current Mood: Moody, in pain, and feeling like grade A shit
Currently Listening to: "Only God Can Judge " 2Pac
Currently Watching: Well, not quite "currently watching," but I can't get enough of: Smallville, Miami Ink, Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends, Made, True Life
Currently Playing: Counter-Strike: Source ([p]X | Phoenix, [p]X | Kal-El, or [p]X | Panic! At the Disco), World of Warcraft (PXAnime on Kel'Thuzad), Battlefield 2 (=Superman=KalEl), Warcraft III (PX_Conqueror)
Currently Reading: Angels & Demons by Dan Brown
Sites: Art MySpace Xanga SuicideGirls
GaiaOnline Last.FM
Wow...I just realized last night that my birthday is this upcoming Monday. I was just getting used to the fact that I was 18 too
Not really sure what I want...This past year hasn't been great for gift ideas for me. But I was thinking of:
Sony CPA-9C Car Cassette Adapter or Griffin iTrip
Neither got great reviews, so I dunno which one I'll get...Most likely the cassette adapter. I need something though, as my CD player now refuses to play anything but a new CD, and even then, it is a reluctant little bitch that won't let me skip songs.
Other than that, the only things I could think of were:
-Internet connection in my room
-New gaming keyboard+mouse (Thinking the Logitech G15 keyboard, with a Logitech G5 Laser Mouse)
I also signed up for Last.FM. My page is linked below. Feel free to add me if you are on there.
The Bad
I think I am going to have a heart attack before the age of 25. It is ridiculous how stressed out I am right now.
I need to get out of school. Plain and simple. At this moment, it isn't my top priority, and it isn't what is best for me. I thought I could do it, but I was wrong. I just need to focus on getting healthy. Build my strength back up, focus on getting better, and then try school once I'm healthy.
So, I've been working my ass of this morning. I'm on the verge of being dropped from at least one of my classes, so I've been frantically sending emails to my teachers explaining my situation and trying to delay the inevitable. I'm going to talk to an advisor tomorrow, so I've been busy brainstorming about what to ask and how to ask it. I've been trying to get in contact with my insurance agency to see if I'll still be covered under my parents if I do withdraw for the semester...I just don't have 90K laying around to pay the bills every time I'm hospitalized.
*Sigh* 19 year olds are not supposed to be this stressed and worried are they?
The Ugly
So, my body is still rebelling. I don't know what is wrong with my back. It has gotten a little better, but still hurts like a bitch. The pain has moved from "everywhere," to my shoulders and the base of my neck. I can't get comfortable...I'm constantly changing positions and restless. Which means that sleeping is not an option. The other day I didn't fall asleep until after 7 in the morning, and last night I fell asleep after 2, and woke up at 6
And my allergies are giving me hell. Stuffy and running nose. Anytime I feel like breathing through my nose, I have to lie on my left side for a good five minutes for at least half of my sinuses to clear. And oh how I love the sinus headaches. *Sigh*
So, I've pretty much changed into a walking pharmacy. I'm taking two medications for allergies, an antibiotic for a sinus infection, Tylenol for the face pain and headaches, Proprinal for my back pain, inhaler for asthma, and I just started a muscle relaxing medication to help with my back...Which effectively turns off my brain and makes me go to sleep for a good two hours.
And to top it all off, I've got all the emotional and stress problems that come with my situation.
Yes. Yes, I do believe I am falling apart.
Wow...Just re-read the entry, and I so sound like a whiny bitch. Lol, oh well, that's me...Deal with it
Super Bowl
I'm routing for the Steelers to win the Super Bowl even more now. Seahawks fans have been bashing our boy "Lights Out" Merriman ever chance they get now. I hope the Steelers give em hell for their blasphemy! By the way, if you want to read a great discussion about the Super Bowl, I suggest you check out this thread: Go Seahawks!!! on my clan's forums. I post as PX_Phoenix for those of you who don't know. Our logic and arguments are flawless...lol
You'll see.
Current Mood: Moody, in pain, and feeling like grade A shit
Currently Listening to: "Only God Can Judge " 2Pac
Currently Watching: Well, not quite "currently watching," but I can't get enough of: Smallville, Miami Ink, Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends, Made, True Life
Currently Playing: Counter-Strike: Source ([p]X | Phoenix, [p]X | Kal-El, or [p]X | Panic! At the Disco), World of Warcraft (PXAnime on Kel'Thuzad), Battlefield 2 (=Superman=KalEl), Warcraft III (PX_Conqueror)
Currently Reading: Angels & Demons by Dan Brown
Sites: Art MySpace Xanga SuicideGirls
GaiaOnline Last.FM
take care