"I used to be a sweet dude now I'm so angry look at what these girls and these fake n*ggas made me" childish gambino.
I wake up everyday single day into a clean slate hoping to have a positive day. It takes about 2 hours before I'm fuming pissed or just plain angry. It's exhausting I'm not an angry guy I love life i appreciate it. But lately I keep on getting kicked in the gut and I've been biting my lip for so long I bit it off there is no restraint left inside of me. It's never one thing it's alway's a huge combination of things. Pretty much the same shit i alway's harp on about. Just once when i tell a girl i like her it'd be nice for them not to laugh or tell me how sweet it is. Or be real just tell me "I'm not attracted to you". Just once one of my friends to actually make me feel like they give a shit about me.
What's the deal with cell phones now too. All it's become to me is when people feel the need to interrupt my life they can. Any person that has my number can start bothering me just because they feel like it. No one should be able to interrupt my flow on a fucking wim with a impersonal fucking text. I'm sick of texting and how impersonal it is. People texting and calling me when I'm in class especially pisses me off when I've made it a point to let everyone know when I"m in class. Then I get people telling me "why don't you just turn your phone off". Well because I don't fucking pay 90 bucks a month to not use my fucking phone. I have it for my connivence. Something may happen to someone important to me So I don't wanna turn my fucking phone off I'm sorry.
People lying too it seem's to be fucking disgustingly common these days people fucking lie and lie and lie. When someone lies to me I feel like they're assuming I'm fucking stupid. I'm not a genius but I'm not fucking stupid either....
Each day that passes I'm leaning more and more towards never come back from Scotland.
One more thing.....
I wake up everyday single day into a clean slate hoping to have a positive day. It takes about 2 hours before I'm fuming pissed or just plain angry. It's exhausting I'm not an angry guy I love life i appreciate it. But lately I keep on getting kicked in the gut and I've been biting my lip for so long I bit it off there is no restraint left inside of me. It's never one thing it's alway's a huge combination of things. Pretty much the same shit i alway's harp on about. Just once when i tell a girl i like her it'd be nice for them not to laugh or tell me how sweet it is. Or be real just tell me "I'm not attracted to you". Just once one of my friends to actually make me feel like they give a shit about me.
What's the deal with cell phones now too. All it's become to me is when people feel the need to interrupt my life they can. Any person that has my number can start bothering me just because they feel like it. No one should be able to interrupt my flow on a fucking wim with a impersonal fucking text. I'm sick of texting and how impersonal it is. People texting and calling me when I'm in class especially pisses me off when I've made it a point to let everyone know when I"m in class. Then I get people telling me "why don't you just turn your phone off". Well because I don't fucking pay 90 bucks a month to not use my fucking phone. I have it for my connivence. Something may happen to someone important to me So I don't wanna turn my fucking phone off I'm sorry.
People lying too it seem's to be fucking disgustingly common these days people fucking lie and lie and lie. When someone lies to me I feel like they're assuming I'm fucking stupid. I'm not a genius but I'm not fucking stupid either....
Each day that passes I'm leaning more and more towards never come back from Scotland.
One more thing.....
Worst kind of people, thats for sure.
Sometimes I feel the angry thing, too. More when I've been stuck in a routine for a while - it really starts to get to me and the smallest thing can piss me right off. Just gotta try not to let the world get to you, I guess. Easier said than done these days.
Havent talked to you in a while! Hope everything else is well!