wendylynn

So much time has passed. Been doing the usual with friends. The news around the house is I painted the living room. I discovered the most incredible primer. I never was much of a primer fan - seemed like more work to me, but this stuff is incredible. I rolled out the entire room in a half hour with half gallon of paint! Incredible! The primer took and hour and a gallon. It looks great, Im all psyched! Now I want to do the dining room and kitchen.

I have not been taking care of myself. I am not eating right, putting off paying bills because I dont feel like thinking about it. No exercise. I feel tired alot of the time.

Im alittle disillusioned with 2 of my friends. One is kinda stupid and wants a boy around all the time so all she has to do is wait on him and not read or think or be creative or intelligent. She is a simple sort of person I guess. I need to learn to accept it. I dont like weak women, but she is capable in other ways, I need to think this through some. This dude for real has no license, no job. Does have an apartment though, except now she picks him up and brings him to her house almost every night. Never mind her 2 girls (12 yrs and 8 yrs) are there to see Mom drag some dude in. I think he is laying alittle ground work in case he has no luck getting a job and cant make rent. He milks his Grandma for money though, I guess as long as the social security holds out.

Another friend did a no show no call after wanting to go out with me so badly, so I arranged my schedule, missed my sons game, and she doesnt call or show up. Turns out she was with an ex boyfriend who needed a ride to the hospital because his uncle broke a leg - whatever. Im not getting dissed for some fucking man and she should have called. Not to mention I called her twice earlier in the day and she ignored the call. Later found out she was riding his ass around. Another dude with no car, no job, no license, no home (living with a girlfriend and got yet another one pregnant)

Another is a male friend who slams me all the time for this date or that one because he is jealous and wants me all to himself and tries to make me feel bad about going out. He admits it when I call him on it and says he knows he is jealous and doesnt mean to but does it without thinking. It s just getting old getting subtly and not so subtly attacked.

Who am I to be craving this dude I went out with who looks like Eminem and has a beautiful dick and has no car and no license. He does have a job though he threatened to quit it and go do roofing. He has a female room mate. Just friends of course. Uh huh. I think about him all the time. Dammit.
And the love spell isnt working so far..... ha ha!! Half kidding.

So anyone with any cosmic connections please do something to send Harrison a strong and unavoidable craving, urge, desire, need to have me. K? Thanks. Smile.

Check it out, from 2 to 6 Saturday the ex helped me with house stuff like replacing light switches and fixing the toilet and hanging this heavy candle holder sculpture iron thing and took me to Home Depot. I wish he lived close by and visited often - oh wait - he does. I cant live with him. No job, no home (says he lives in some dudes Moms basement - uh huh - I think he has a sugar Momma) He sleeps all the time and got his phone cut off. Doesnt want a job or a phone or an address (doesnt want to be accountable and responsible) He pays me right on time all the time and always comes get the kids on schedule. We have such history and there is still love there and sex. Im in a quandry about this one.

Ok, maybe Im more conservative about sex than I thought because now that it is everywhere, I tend to be picky and turn it down. Its like I want them to want me, then once I have that confirmation, Im ready to move on. Sick puppy. I love to make out. Thats how Harrison got me. He said "pull over so we can make out" I was not at all interested until then. I love talking to him too though. Funny, intelligent, and capable of having a real conversation. Ok, I really do want him.