I've been absent the last 3 or 4 weeks for so many reasons. I can't imagine trying to explain in one blog.
I lost my best friend Bobby who was more like family. I took his death hard it hurts and everyone grieves in there own way. I just need some time.
I'm having a hard time letting go of my youngest daughter Little Red. I've had her on my own since she was 6 months old. I'm now co parenting with her biological mother Jamie. Little Red is living with her mom now and I get her back Easter weekend, Memorial Day weekend, Fourth of July weekend and her birthday and the holidays.
I should be jumping up and down with joy no kids but I'm not I miss her. My youngest daughter Little Red is so happy to finally have a mom in her life. I paid for Jamie to go to a drug rehab facility for single moms in Tennessee so my daughter would have a sober mom for the first time in her life. I kept my promise to Jamie get off the drugs and stay off the drugs and I will share our daughter with you. Proud of Jamie she's been sober from her drug addiction for two years now.
Me and my girlfriend Cheyenne will not be getting married in May. Her job moved her back to Virginia and I don't know our future. We are still a loving couple trying to figure out a long distance relationship. I miss my girlfriend Cheyenne!
So I'm home alone and it's so quiet I can't stand it. I'm not use to being alone and my house feels so empty. I fill like I'm in a deep hole and I need to dig my way out and start my life again. I will dig myself out of that deep hole and live the best life I can live. Enough said peace out!
