i miss chris so much already. it sucks. i really just want to be home right now. i miss my sweetie. i'm so sick of school, of the classes, or the stupid busywork homework, of tests, of papers, of the people here, of everything. i just want to be away from it all. i want to be at home with chris, working and making some money(i'm so broke right now), reading lots of good books, laying in the sun. i want to get away from all the snobbery here at school. i want summer to be like the weekend i just had with chris, amazing. i wish more of my friends were going to be coming home for the summer. my two closest girl friends live in california, and everyone else is staying at their school. looks like it's just going to be and chris. it won't be so bad i guess. i just wish that i could be done with school for the summer already but not have to do any of that finals crap and all the hassle of packing everything up and moving again. i'm just so sick of it all.
chris watched his next door neighbor die last night. it's so sad. everyone did what they could, but it was no use. they're not sure yet if he had a stroke or a heart attack. the neighbor was a really nice older man. every sunday he would make soup and then bring half of what he made to chris' family. and every night he would go on a walk with his wife. he was just a really sweet old man. chris is really upset about it. he called me and left a message because i was gone and as soon as i heard the message i knew that someone had died, isn't it weird how you just know things without anyone telling you what's wrong? those few seconds it took for the phone to ring and chris to pick up were so scary. chris was crying, and it just breaks my heart to hear him cry. he said he had to talk to me because he needed to tell me how much he loved me. and that he didn't know what he would do without me. it hurt so bad to hear him cry. i started crying, because the neighbor had died and because it just kills me (excuse the pun please but i can't think of any other word) to hear chris cry. i wish i could have driven home and crawled in bed with him and rubbed his head until he fell asleep. it's just all so sad. why do bad things always happen to good people?
reading: middlesex, by jeffery eugenides
listening to: "for you i'll be forgetting me" noise ratchet
shelley
chris watched his next door neighbor die last night. it's so sad. everyone did what they could, but it was no use. they're not sure yet if he had a stroke or a heart attack. the neighbor was a really nice older man. every sunday he would make soup and then bring half of what he made to chris' family. and every night he would go on a walk with his wife. he was just a really sweet old man. chris is really upset about it. he called me and left a message because i was gone and as soon as i heard the message i knew that someone had died, isn't it weird how you just know things without anyone telling you what's wrong? those few seconds it took for the phone to ring and chris to pick up were so scary. chris was crying, and it just breaks my heart to hear him cry. he said he had to talk to me because he needed to tell me how much he loved me. and that he didn't know what he would do without me. it hurt so bad to hear him cry. i started crying, because the neighbor had died and because it just kills me (excuse the pun please but i can't think of any other word) to hear chris cry. i wish i could have driven home and crawled in bed with him and rubbed his head until he fell asleep. it's just all so sad. why do bad things always happen to good people?
reading: middlesex, by jeffery eugenides
listening to: "for you i'll be forgetting me" noise ratchet
shelley VIEW 14 of 14 COMMENTS
As strange as it sounds, i want a 3 way relationship, i think that it would be cool. but like you say i think we should spend more time togather as a trio!
and it'll be summer soon enough, so don't get too bogged down by school