waterfordman

I logged off the computer a couple of hours ago as I have been on here far to long again. I am determined to do more than just sit at the pc in the evenings and weekends whilst the weather is not so great or whilst I chill out from the week's activities.

Recently though I have been evaluating my whole online experience, like others I can remember when the internet was a new concept and yahoo chat was in html. I made a few good friends from those days, some who are still around and others who have moved on or changed handles online.

I spend a lot of time in SG Chat, for those that don't and believe being in chat is sad and a waste of time I will just say this, you do what you want to do and I'll do what I want to do. I digress, recently there have been a few more couples, good luck to them.

They make me feel old but then I am older and am very wary of that as a fact and not necesarily a digression or bad thing. However I am fairly reserved as don't want to be thought of as a creep. If that ever happens I'll just leave as that is certainly not me.

Over the years I have got involved in several projects online. Currently I moderate on a photography website, a law enforcement forum and a couple of Transport related forums and photo sharing communities specifically for transport and historic vehicles.

However something is still missing. I lost my best friend a few years ago due to my own stupidity, this is something I have deeply regretted and never been able to put right. Whilst I have some good friends online I dont have any real good friends that I can share my thoughts and feelings with. My best friend now would have to be my camera as it goes everywhere with me and through it I get great pleasure in posting pictures for others to enjoy.

I don't know what the future holds for me and I try not to think about it. I tend to go with the flow as it is the easiest option. Thinking is not something I like to do. I like to keep my mind occupied with matters that make me happy ,like making others lives easier and happier where I can. I just sometimes wonder how the hell I ended up in the situation that I am with a nice house, lots to give yet no one to give it to that wants to make any long lasting commitment. Hence why I spend lots of time either taking photos or in chat and online.

It is also probably the lazy option which I really need to do something about snapping out of, yet as long as I am doing something worthwhile and rewarding as a day job I need to be able to unwind and relax without needing to stray too far, the internet caters for this quite nicely.

I love watching Extreme Makeover Home Edition as it shows what can be done by communities pulling together to help each other. It makes me laugh & cry and perhaps I just hope that I will be remembered once my time is up for the happiness and joy that I have brought whilst on my journey.

The season I hate the most is fast approaching, it is a time when loved ones come together to enjoy. Whilst I come from a very large family with the exception of a handful we are not that close which became all to apparent at the wedding I recently attended in Ireland.

So if I appear to be a tad off or not my usual chirpy and happy self over the next few months you may just appreciate why. This isn't an attempt to get anyone to feel sorry for me because that is not what I am about. Save your pity for those who really need it. I'll just carry on existing on my journey through life .................