SILLYNESS
I've had some sort of dark cloud hanging over me for the past couple of years - feelingt he burden of responsibility - but now it's dawned on me that the problem is I simply forgot to be SILLY.
In the olden days I was constantly silly. I'd pun and joke and take an abstract view of everything. Then I discovered 'skepticism' as a hobby, got badly bullied in a job at work, felt the burden of responsibility of buying property on my own, got overshadowed totally be egomaniacs who get away with being extremely odd all day at work, questioned whether I was just being a cock etc ... and somehow in the middle of all this I've become a dour person who's only full of jokes with a very tiny amount of people.
Rediscovering sillyness in my mind has been light a bright flash of beautiful white light. Monty Python! Laughing loudly at bad football commentary! Inviting my parents to my new home then awfully setting them to work with a hoe! Buying liquorice sweets just because they are worryingly called "Nigroids" etc!
Do any of you have this too? Maybe the sense that it's almost as if a fairy had come in the night and extracted a part of your personality? If you haven't, perhaps you should?
Me, I'm so happy with this realisation that it's almost as if the clock has stopped. As if, if I were on the final day of a long holiday, I still wouldn't be worrying that it's all over. Magic.
I've had some sort of dark cloud hanging over me for the past couple of years - feelingt he burden of responsibility - but now it's dawned on me that the problem is I simply forgot to be SILLY.
In the olden days I was constantly silly. I'd pun and joke and take an abstract view of everything. Then I discovered 'skepticism' as a hobby, got badly bullied in a job at work, felt the burden of responsibility of buying property on my own, got overshadowed totally be egomaniacs who get away with being extremely odd all day at work, questioned whether I was just being a cock etc ... and somehow in the middle of all this I've become a dour person who's only full of jokes with a very tiny amount of people.
Rediscovering sillyness in my mind has been light a bright flash of beautiful white light. Monty Python! Laughing loudly at bad football commentary! Inviting my parents to my new home then awfully setting them to work with a hoe! Buying liquorice sweets just because they are worryingly called "Nigroids" etc!
Do any of you have this too? Maybe the sense that it's almost as if a fairy had come in the night and extracted a part of your personality? If you haven't, perhaps you should?
Me, I'm so happy with this realisation that it's almost as if the clock has stopped. As if, if I were on the final day of a long holiday, I still wouldn't be worrying that it's all over. Magic.
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That is a good point. I hadn't thought of that before. I still don't like it
P.S. I too have felt your dourness. As someone with a dark and sarcastic at times sense of humor it does get so disheartening trying to explain something to someone who will not get it. Being around my in laws nearly killed me. Being away and able to be me, it's fun. Giggling about stupid stuff just because, is great times.
Viva la silliness!!!
embracing your inner geek is the best thing ever