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Something wonderful is brewing.....but it's always a juxtaposing of the terrible and the beautiful. It seems there is never anything great happening with out something equally bad happening to me. Im sure this is the case for alot of people....I think I tend to dwell more on mine. Or maybe it's not even dwelling, but a more sensitive perception of the bad happening. I wish I could go back to the days where I had a boy that was grand, a tattooing apprenticeship and not a care in the world. If there is any good left in this world, it is getting harder and harder to find. I think with growing up comes a hard fucking realization that anything in this world that you want, you have to get yourself. No more counting on others to see you through, and more often then not, no one is going to give you true guidance. Im learning to trust my instincts and only mine.....because they are the only ones that have proved true thus far.

Im still wavering on life choices, though I know no one is going to make them for me. I wish they would! LOL...I can only lay out what I have to work with, and hope someone has been through it before and can offer up some advice. I just feel like Im going no where fast...I just want to get out of this area that is bogged down with utter negativity and contentment with being mediocre. I need a change.

On a less negative note....Havana is less than a week away! Can't wait to see some of my favorite people....and you can bet Im going to try to show up a bit less ineibriated then last time. Hahaha. No REGRET!

This snow is total crap. Im over it....get me out of this frozen tundra! AHHHH.



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I was a little disturbed by this.

I won't throw myself into a tizzy over it, and I don't think the poster should be attacked...but I'd like to know where it came from. I was present on Sat and Sun and I don't recall any girls being rude at all. I'd hope we can chalk it up to haters or misunderstandings....