It has been far too long since last posting a blog and I need to write down how I felt about last year to help me look upon it objectively.
First of all, Happy New Year to everyone! I hope that you have all made leaps and bounds in your lives (In the direction that you wished to go in) and that the progress you made has allowed for you to find some happiness
That being said, 2008 in review:
I really don't know what to think about this year as a whole. I've accomplished many things, and made changes in my life that I am both very proud of, and others that I am still hesitant about.
The year started of great with a promotion in my on campus job to a position where I was in charge of two residence buildings and responsible for a staff team. The experience looks great on my resume, and is helping me grow into a more responsible person.
I decided one night in February while lying in my cozy little bed that I was uncomfortable calling myself an animal lover if I was eating them, and the next day began the transition to vegetarianism. I am very proud of this change. It is probably the most important event of 2008 for me. I also cut back significantly on drinking. I only drink socially now, not to get drunk, and finally, I tried to settle down and not fool around with many women.
I made the decision to stay on campus over the summer and not live at home with my family. It was a tough choice, but I really wanted to focus my summer on training in mixed martial arts to improve even more. When I was about a month or so into summer, I got thrown awkwardly and messed up my knee with a torn MCL. I'm still having knee problems today, and I'm unsure why. This was likely one of the most depressing moments of my life, as I had dedicated myself in many ways to training for the summer, and to have it taken away from me so quickly was devastating.
Fast forward two months, and I was accepted into a prestigious program at my school within my degree where I worked as an athletic trainer with a sports team, and learned about assessing athletic injuries. I was incredibly excited about this, but understood that it would be a lot of work through out the year.
School came, and the first semester was a new kind of hell that I hadn't ever experienced before. Overloading, athletic therapy, and my job made me lose contact with the majority of my friends, stop training except for coaching two days a week, fall out of contact with the girl of my dreams, and made me hate school/life in general.
I began to fool around again, not due to stress, but because I realized that I don't find having an active sex life to be wrong. Society makes us feel it is wrong to do this, but if it is what you enjoy, and you aren't hurting yourself or others by doing it, then why is it wrong?
Finally, I began to experiment with some drugs. I have never done anything before this year, but have always been open to the idea of drugs if done with the proper mindset when taking them. I experimented with magic mushrooms and weed. Not a big fan of weed, but shrooms are sensational for realizing things about yourself. I am very much about self discovery, and I believe shrooms provide a venue for that when done responsibly. Message me if you want to know what I mean, I guess.
So ended the year.
There were so many ups and downs for me this year that it is hard to spin it as either positive or negative year. I guess when you look at it, these experiences, even (and maybe especially) the negative ones make you grow as an individual. When I look at the year in that sense, it has been a great year for personal growth for me.
The one overwhelming realization that I have come to over the past year is that I need to go somewhere. I can't realize who or what I am supposed to be in this place. Academia is great in giving you training for a job, but I feel it hinders other aspects of your life. As soon as I finish here, I need to take a trip. I don't know where or for how long, but I want to come back as who I am.
Wishing you all the best in this New Year,
WtW
First of all, Happy New Year to everyone! I hope that you have all made leaps and bounds in your lives (In the direction that you wished to go in) and that the progress you made has allowed for you to find some happiness
That being said, 2008 in review:
I really don't know what to think about this year as a whole. I've accomplished many things, and made changes in my life that I am both very proud of, and others that I am still hesitant about.
The year started of great with a promotion in my on campus job to a position where I was in charge of two residence buildings and responsible for a staff team. The experience looks great on my resume, and is helping me grow into a more responsible person.
I decided one night in February while lying in my cozy little bed that I was uncomfortable calling myself an animal lover if I was eating them, and the next day began the transition to vegetarianism. I am very proud of this change. It is probably the most important event of 2008 for me. I also cut back significantly on drinking. I only drink socially now, not to get drunk, and finally, I tried to settle down and not fool around with many women.
I made the decision to stay on campus over the summer and not live at home with my family. It was a tough choice, but I really wanted to focus my summer on training in mixed martial arts to improve even more. When I was about a month or so into summer, I got thrown awkwardly and messed up my knee with a torn MCL. I'm still having knee problems today, and I'm unsure why. This was likely one of the most depressing moments of my life, as I had dedicated myself in many ways to training for the summer, and to have it taken away from me so quickly was devastating.
Fast forward two months, and I was accepted into a prestigious program at my school within my degree where I worked as an athletic trainer with a sports team, and learned about assessing athletic injuries. I was incredibly excited about this, but understood that it would be a lot of work through out the year.
School came, and the first semester was a new kind of hell that I hadn't ever experienced before. Overloading, athletic therapy, and my job made me lose contact with the majority of my friends, stop training except for coaching two days a week, fall out of contact with the girl of my dreams, and made me hate school/life in general.
I began to fool around again, not due to stress, but because I realized that I don't find having an active sex life to be wrong. Society makes us feel it is wrong to do this, but if it is what you enjoy, and you aren't hurting yourself or others by doing it, then why is it wrong?
Finally, I began to experiment with some drugs. I have never done anything before this year, but have always been open to the idea of drugs if done with the proper mindset when taking them. I experimented with magic mushrooms and weed. Not a big fan of weed, but shrooms are sensational for realizing things about yourself. I am very much about self discovery, and I believe shrooms provide a venue for that when done responsibly. Message me if you want to know what I mean, I guess.
So ended the year.
There were so many ups and downs for me this year that it is hard to spin it as either positive or negative year. I guess when you look at it, these experiences, even (and maybe especially) the negative ones make you grow as an individual. When I look at the year in that sense, it has been a great year for personal growth for me.
The one overwhelming realization that I have come to over the past year is that I need to go somewhere. I can't realize who or what I am supposed to be in this place. Academia is great in giving you training for a job, but I feel it hinders other aspects of your life. As soon as I finish here, I need to take a trip. I don't know where or for how long, but I want to come back as who I am.
Wishing you all the best in this New Year,
WtW
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Very very true.