I haven't slept more than a few hours or eaten anything in three days, boohoo. Everytime I close my eyes or try to eat the adrenalin floods my body and I get sick to my stomach. I know that anger helps but I don't think it will fix anything. Facing these things head on is the only way heal. The problem with living in the...
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This weekend I learned that the sister of a very close friend of mine died during childbirth. The doctors aren't sure what happened, something about her body going septic (spelling?). Her heart just stopped and they couldn't revive her. The baby lived. I hope he never carries any guilt about it.
Life is fragile!
Life is fragile!
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lalindaloca:
Chin up, man. This bad adrenaline you're being subjected to won't last forever. In the long run, this is a good thing for you. Remember, never be someone's emotional yo-yo. Whenever you find yourself in the middle of a guilt jag or a "what if" trip, just remind yourself of the facts - you know what they are.
You're one of the good guys, trust me.
And I still ain't writin' you off. HAHA! 
Listen to Song To The Siren...
and read the lyrics...
Arrrrrrr, Matey! Land ahoy! (wherever / whomever that may be...)
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Chin up, man. This bad adrenaline you're being subjected to won't last forever. In the long run, this is a good thing for you. Remember, never be someone's emotional yo-yo. Whenever you find yourself in the middle of a guilt jag or a "what if" trip, just remind yourself of the facts - you know what they are.
You're one of the good guys, trust me.
And I still ain't writin' you off. HAHA!
Listen to Song To The Siren...
and read the lyrics...
Arrrrrrr, Matey! Land ahoy! (wherever / whomever that may be...)[Edited on Oct 18, 2005 10:22PM]
1kiss_of_life:
Linda and I are going to camp out and tell ghost stories and make s'mores. Bet she'd invite cha if you asked her nicely ... or even not so nicely.
Is it me? Or am I just being paranoid? In related news I'm heading out to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show tonight looking for a group of people I've never met. This should be interesting. I smell trouble and no it's not me knuckleheads I just got out of the shower.
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lalindaloca:
What is this about being paranoid? YOU? What would you have to be paranoid about???
Well I was walking down the street
just a-having a think
When a snake of a guy gave me an evil wink
He shook me up, he took me by surprise
He had a (Jeep Wrangler) *ahem*
and the devil's eyes.
He stared at me and I felt a change
Time meant nothing, never would again
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It's astounding, time is fleeting
Madness takes its toll
But listen closely
Not for very much longer
I've got to keep control
It's so dreamy
Oh fantasy free me
So you can't see me, no not at all
In another dimension with voyeuristic intention
Well-secluded, I see all
With a bit of a mind flip (fuck)
You're there in the time slip (suck)
And nothing can ever be the same
You're spaced out on sensation
Like you're under sedation
Let's do the Time Warp again!
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Well I was walking down the street
just a-having a think
When a snake of a guy gave me an evil wink
He shook me up, he took me by surprise
He had a (Jeep Wrangler) *ahem*
and the devil's eyes.
He stared at me and I felt a change
Time meant nothing, never would again
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It's astounding, time is fleeting
Madness takes its toll
But listen closely
Not for very much longer
I've got to keep control
It's so dreamy
Oh fantasy free me
So you can't see me, no not at all
In another dimension with voyeuristic intention
Well-secluded, I see all
With a bit of a mind flip (fuck)
You're there in the time slip (suck)
And nothing can ever be the same
You're spaced out on sensation
Like you're under sedation
Let's do the Time Warp again!
[Edited on Oct 03, 2005 3:16PM]
lalindaloca:
Mmmmm.... shower 
Umm... *cough* oh, excuse me. *runs back into hole* 
Umm... *cough* oh, excuse me. *runs back into hole* I wanted to update my page and talk about a few things that have happened over the past several weeks. But I still have too many thoughts and ideas swiling around in my head. I have started doing some of the things I said I was giong to do before. The main thing is starting down a path to getting control of my life. It...
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hippomonki:
thank you doll face!
maybe i'll get a chance to meet you tonight!
maybe i'll get a chance to meet you tonight!
lalindaloca:
Motorhead is finally back in my hot, not-so-little hands!!!! YAY! YAY! YAY! And thank you soooooo much for the Massive Attack & Raygun Gothic cds! I gotta burn a couple for you and send them your way soon. *happy girl can now once again blast Motorhead Rock 'N' Roll and headbang like a loon while getting ready to go out*
And ha ha ha! I've already heard you sound like a self-help guru! NYAH!
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Motorhead is finally back in my hot, not-so-little hands!!!! YAY! YAY! YAY! And thank you soooooo much for the Massive Attack & Raygun Gothic cds! I gotta burn a couple for you and send them your way soon. *happy girl can now once again blast Motorhead Rock 'N' Roll and headbang like a loon while getting ready to go out*
And ha ha ha! I've already heard you sound like a self-help guru!
NYAH![Edited on Oct 01, 2005 3:59AM]
wakeangel:
Um, Burning Man and shit
Tha's right, I'm back from the Playa! I know, I know, I've been back for a week and why the hell has it taken so long for me to update? Well, for those of you who know what Burning Man is like... well, you know. For those that don't, let me 'splain. When you're out there on the playa things are sort of other worldly....
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hypnogogic:
Welcome to SGPDX. And what serendipity said.
trilobyte:
Thanks - and cool-ass pictures! Great stuff, thanks for sharing...
~Trilo~
~Trilo~
well ladies and germs, friends romans countrymen, I know it's been for feakin' ever since i've updated and I sincerely apologize for taking so long (not that anyone cares *sniff*). There have been alot of changes in my life lately. My Rusk training is going smashingly. I had an awsome time in San Jose, California. The team members down there rock the hayouse! I'm now...
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1kiss_of_life:
now you are an ass in las vegas.
... and drunk and funny too. don't stay out too late.
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... and drunk and funny too. don't stay out too late.
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lalindaloca:
She gets it, she got it, she came, she conquered. Now what? Damn this post-playa come-down is knockin' my ass to the ground today. 
sigh. Better get to shedding my skin. See ya.
sigh. Better get to shedding my skin. See ya. Yep, it's true. I'm staring down the barrel of another life change. For better or worse, who knows? I suppose I don't mind being single again, if indeed that's what I'll be. I guess so. I guess I'm gonna date, hang out, meet people. I should... so I will. Time is blazing past, it's scary really. I feel like every moment is spiralling out of...
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cellosoul:
I send you good luck and good thoughts--long time no write, eh? Ahhh, c'est la vie. I like your stuff quite a bit...it reminds me quite a lot of The Church, among other sounds.
How are ye?
How are ye?
lalindaloca:
Staring down the barrel of yet another life change? Hmm... how well do I know that? 
I'm staring down the barrel of a semi-automatic shotgun of an over-loaded life, trying to delicately extract myself from its sites, bit by bit.
The only outcome for me will be success. Even in failure there is success, remember that. In that regard, the last year or so of my life has been a great success of many failures. I would not be where I am today, nor who I am today, had it not been for these failures. Now it's all a matter of wrapping them up in their separate little boxes and shelving them for future reference. Damn, I can be profound when I wanna be.
Yeah, time only continues to pick up speed, my friend, and it can be really fucking scary. However, I've always used the adrenaline caused by the fear of the unknown and the speed at which life picks up momentum to propell me into new situations, hence my current one.
Since I just got active on SG and your journal entry is a little old, I do hope that you don't still feel like every moment is spiralling out of control. I think you've lasso'd it all quite well. Envision all those moments blowing around in the wind getting further and further away from you, like in a dust storm.
They start out solid but start to dissipate. They come in waves. Memories aren't anything to cling to; they are to be remembered, embraced and then let go, but you'll always remember them - it just gets easier with time.
I'm staring down the barrel of a semi-automatic shotgun of an over-loaded life, trying to delicately extract myself from its sites, bit by bit.
The only outcome for me will be success. Even in failure there is success, remember that. In that regard, the last year or so of my life has been a great success of many failures. I would not be where I am today, nor who I am today, had it not been for these failures. Now it's all a matter of wrapping them up in their separate little boxes and shelving them for future reference. Damn, I can be profound when I wanna be.
Yeah, time only continues to pick up speed, my friend, and it can be really fucking scary. However, I've always used the adrenaline caused by the fear of the unknown and the speed at which life picks up momentum to propell me into new situations, hence my current one.
Since I just got active on SG and your journal entry is a little old, I do hope that you don't still feel like every moment is spiralling out of control. I think you've lasso'd it all quite well. Envision all those moments blowing around in the wind getting further and further away from you, like in a dust storm.
They start out solid but start to dissipate. They come in waves. Memories aren't anything to cling to; they are to be remembered, embraced and then let go, but you'll always remember them - it just gets easier with time.
Sitting here staring at a computer screen wanting to do something creative is akin to staring at a blank page. Daunting at best, nightmarish at worst. This has been going on for some time now. Of course you can't force it sooooo... I'll just continue to stare at the screen. Or lurk around people's journal pages, yeah that sounds like fun.
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1kiss_of_life:
http://suicidegirls.com/words/Chuck+Palahniuk+-+Haunted/
From the Q&A: "So far Ive negotiated doing a Fight Club ballet, to be produced in London. Thats not on track anymore. Then there was the Fight Club Broadway musical."
I think I mentioned this as a neato possibility. Funny Tyler, very funny.
From the Q&A: "So far Ive negotiated doing a Fight Club ballet, to be produced in London. Thats not on track anymore. Then there was the Fight Club Broadway musical."
I think I mentioned this as a neato possibility. Funny Tyler, very funny.
lalindaloca:
Lurking around people's journal pages, eh? You know that can only lead to trouble... Albeit the good kind - heh heh.
Albeit the good kind - heh heh.I'm in a pissy mood... say something funny.
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1kiss_of_life:
Oh ok, so that's why you were pissy. I thought it was something not so ..... quotidian. 
Well did you at least have a good birthday, beefcake? heh.
Well did you at least have a good birthday, beefcake? heh.
1kiss_of_life:
Nope, the houses I would want to buy would be under contract. All the "shacks" were being bought up by slum lords the moment they hit the market. Last one when under contract 18 hrs after it was listed. But it's over now. I have one, just found out a moment ago.
YAY I can destress. Oh holy shit, I have two houses. This one has to sell. So you do have pills I can borrow .... margaritas maybe? Or a jeep to help me move. Oh, well at least I have a jeep. Um, so you need to bring my jeep over. K? Closing July 1, so you have time to reschedule appts. (free washer/dryer in it for ya.)
YAY I can destress. Oh holy shit, I have two houses. This one has to sell. So you do have pills I can borrow .... margaritas maybe? Or a jeep to help me move. Oh, well at least I have a jeep. Um, so you need to bring my jeep over. K? Closing July 1, so you have time to reschedule appts. (free washer/dryer in it for ya.)
Hello everyone. If you stopped by for details on the haircutting event this is what's going on. Rusk is training stylists to become educators and platform artists for their national design team. All of the stylist in the class have been doing hair for more than three years so this isn't beauty school (not that there's anything wrong with that we all have to start...
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blackkatbetty:
thanx for the good advice. my first week was better then i thought it would be . the freshmen girls are really nice and helpful. there was just this one gay guy who kept critizing (sp?) me but i jst ignored him. the rest of the senior girls likes my hair and tats so they excepted me in to their click. because after all your either in it or talked about sucks but i just keep it cool, and never talk shit.
love, betty, KIT
love, betty, KIT
1kiss_of_life:
Look who I found out chasing a butterfly.
wakeangel:
Rusk images, my own work
"when we're happy it seems to slip past without notice" - those 8 days went by pretty fast... hmmm...
Okey dokey doggie daddy!!!
"I like the one where she looks at me and says something naughty"
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