I spent much of the day trying to work some things out that I've let sit for far too long. I think it calls for a numbered list.
1. I called school to finally set up my first advising appointment. Its silly that I've been in school for going on 3 years and I haven't ever met with the advisor for my major. This is because I keep waivering between majors, but I think I may ultimately change it this week. I will become a Child and Family Services major yet again because there is an internship to get your degree that could greatly help me with getting a job after school. They also have a program that specializes in family and women's services which is what I want to go into. I realized I'm not as far into my sociology degree as I had hoped and I'm equally as far into a CFS degree so what the hell. I need to do what's best for me, even if that means I'm in school for an extra term or two.
2. I cleaned off my coffee table. As mediocre as that sounds, I feel like my coffee table has been representing my mental state lately. When I first moved in it was clean and fresh, but slowly all of this pointless crap accumulated on top of it. So I put things away and I'm feeling much better about that.
3. I took a nap. I haven't napped for me, when I felt like taking a damn nap, in a long time. A lot of times I nap when Dannypoopkins is sleeping just to pass the time. This time, though, I was actually sleepy so I fucking napped. And it felt great.
4. I started a new way of thinking about my parents. My dad is so mentally and emotionally abusive to my mom and for years I have tried to get her out of the situation. After talking to her today I feel like I have to quit trying. She's not going to leave unless its something she really wants to do. She complains about hating his guts everyday but refuses to get herself out of the situation. I have resolved myself to leaving it be. It is not my responsibility to take care of her. There's no use in frustrating myself like I've been doing by trying to convince her to leave. I just hope things work out for her.
5. I think I finally realized that my negative outlook as of lately is the reason I'm physically tired. I've got to get back into myself as I was a year ago. I was completely happy with who I was and how my life was going. Its time I quit being such a whiney little bitch.
Word. That's it. I feel really good having done all of that thinking today. I haven't had a day off like today where I could do that sort of thing in a long while. I am putting this down in writing so that I don't forget a week down the road what I'm setting out to do.
No more being miserable. My life is fucking lovely and I need to start recognizing that. I mean, cmon, at least I don't live in Mobile, Alabama where they're buried under 15 feet of water. Life could be worse.
1. I called school to finally set up my first advising appointment. Its silly that I've been in school for going on 3 years and I haven't ever met with the advisor for my major. This is because I keep waivering between majors, but I think I may ultimately change it this week. I will become a Child and Family Services major yet again because there is an internship to get your degree that could greatly help me with getting a job after school. They also have a program that specializes in family and women's services which is what I want to go into. I realized I'm not as far into my sociology degree as I had hoped and I'm equally as far into a CFS degree so what the hell. I need to do what's best for me, even if that means I'm in school for an extra term or two.
2. I cleaned off my coffee table. As mediocre as that sounds, I feel like my coffee table has been representing my mental state lately. When I first moved in it was clean and fresh, but slowly all of this pointless crap accumulated on top of it. So I put things away and I'm feeling much better about that.
3. I took a nap. I haven't napped for me, when I felt like taking a damn nap, in a long time. A lot of times I nap when Dannypoopkins is sleeping just to pass the time. This time, though, I was actually sleepy so I fucking napped. And it felt great.
4. I started a new way of thinking about my parents. My dad is so mentally and emotionally abusive to my mom and for years I have tried to get her out of the situation. After talking to her today I feel like I have to quit trying. She's not going to leave unless its something she really wants to do. She complains about hating his guts everyday but refuses to get herself out of the situation. I have resolved myself to leaving it be. It is not my responsibility to take care of her. There's no use in frustrating myself like I've been doing by trying to convince her to leave. I just hope things work out for her.
5. I think I finally realized that my negative outlook as of lately is the reason I'm physically tired. I've got to get back into myself as I was a year ago. I was completely happy with who I was and how my life was going. Its time I quit being such a whiney little bitch.
Word. That's it. I feel really good having done all of that thinking today. I haven't had a day off like today where I could do that sort of thing in a long while. I am putting this down in writing so that I don't forget a week down the road what I'm setting out to do.
No more being miserable. My life is fucking lovely and I need to start recognizing that. I mean, cmon, at least I don't live in Mobile, Alabama where they're buried under 15 feet of water. Life could be worse.