vonpink

'I think we grew up under a bad sun"


Hmm so I'm at a lost. Yes I did go out with that girl again. And yes i made out with her for a good hour or so.(side note does anyone have and tounge excesies to make ya tounge stronger? mines killing me)
I dont know what to do. I mean i enjoy the fact that theres someone that wants me. But i just dont see myself in a relationship. She just hit that party phase where one must go out every night and drink. Its just not me i dont like most the people in this town. they just scum and i rather not deal with the drama they seem to cause.
I dont want to date her just for the sex either i dont want to become what i've tried not to become for so long. I dont want to string her along and I dont want to become like my friend and blow everyone off cus his girl doesnt liek his friends. Never being in a relastionship scarys the shit out of me i dont wantt o give up things i enjoy doing. I know its not how all realtionships go but its all ive seen teh guy changes and the girl gets all she wants. guess i dont want to be used. As much as i complained about being alone i guess since i spent so much time alone in the dark im afraid of the light.
I'm losing all those games i swore i never would play.

Guess its time for the only cure i know for this problem and my hurting brain from thinking to much

In more news my ex got ahold of me asking for legal advice and just to complain about her life to me. Incase ya wondering im a jack of all trades i know real estate, some legal stuff, some pscology, farming, carpentry,cooking. so ya.really what did i do to get this? huh?

My movies on the back burner i need to getout fo this town its killing me. each day i feel a bit of me die.
sorry for being so emo