i haven't updated in awhile. i guess i haven't really had much to say, well, more like i just haven't felt like saying anything. i don't have anything new and/or exciting to speak of; generally the same old shit.
i'm fed up with work. i'm tempted everyday to just say "fuck you. i quit" and walk out... but then i realize i'm fucking broke and need money badly and can't afford to waste tyme finding another job. the thing that really bothers me is that i should be making more money than i do. i was told i'd be making more starting last november, and that hasn't fucking happend. yet, a few people hired AFTER i was were "promoted" and got a raise. ugh. whatever. i'm planning on taking a bartending class in june so hopefully from that i can at least earn extra money on the side dishing out alcohol at some lame bar.
another negative to speak of are the fucking dreams i've been having lately. i very rarely have "bad dreams" or "nightmares", but for the past 1 1/2 weeks i've had them every nyte. i don't know what the deal is. i guess i'm just extra stressed and depressed lately so it's showing up while i sleep as well. some dreams are very horror-flick like (filled with blood, gore, violence, etc) while others are filled with personal issues (work, relationships, etc). either way i wake up in a state of panic and am in a weird wretched mood for hours later.
and lastly i'll leave you with some good news....i'm FINALLY getting my chest piece finished tomorrow. after procrastinating for a month, it shall be completed tomorrow nyte. new ink always brightens my spirits so i am quite looking forward to this.
i apologize to everyone for not responding to journals lately, but i promise to leave you all some comments and kisses soon!
i'm fed up with work. i'm tempted everyday to just say "fuck you. i quit" and walk out... but then i realize i'm fucking broke and need money badly and can't afford to waste tyme finding another job. the thing that really bothers me is that i should be making more money than i do. i was told i'd be making more starting last november, and that hasn't fucking happend. yet, a few people hired AFTER i was were "promoted" and got a raise. ugh. whatever. i'm planning on taking a bartending class in june so hopefully from that i can at least earn extra money on the side dishing out alcohol at some lame bar.
another negative to speak of are the fucking dreams i've been having lately. i very rarely have "bad dreams" or "nightmares", but for the past 1 1/2 weeks i've had them every nyte. i don't know what the deal is. i guess i'm just extra stressed and depressed lately so it's showing up while i sleep as well. some dreams are very horror-flick like (filled with blood, gore, violence, etc) while others are filled with personal issues (work, relationships, etc). either way i wake up in a state of panic and am in a weird wretched mood for hours later.
and lastly i'll leave you with some good news....i'm FINALLY getting my chest piece finished tomorrow. after procrastinating for a month, it shall be completed tomorrow nyte. new ink always brightens my spirits so i am quite looking forward to this.
i apologize to everyone for not responding to journals lately, but i promise to leave you all some comments and kisses soon!
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im now graduated and basically unemployed and having to mooch off of my boyfriend for food and shelter.
so i hear ya about the money problems.