maybe it's the weather. maybe it's just me. maybe it's both.
i've been extremely moody lately. i mean, i'm used to the phases of my nuttiness, but recently it's been BAD. one minute i'm in a decent mood, and the next is unbearable. i don't quite understand it. i'm not used to these sudden mood swings. this shit is normally gradual for me, a few weeks of depression and then some off tyme. more and more it becomes obvious(well it always was obvious) that i should be medicated. i'm so fucking against medication though. it's a known fact that i have clinical problems. it's a known fact that my brain is primarily to blame for this. it's a known fact that medication is the best way to help. and yet, i'm still stubborn enough to refuse medicating and believe that i can fix myself. anyway. i'm sick of this entry.
i've been extremely moody lately. i mean, i'm used to the phases of my nuttiness, but recently it's been BAD. one minute i'm in a decent mood, and the next is unbearable. i don't quite understand it. i'm not used to these sudden mood swings. this shit is normally gradual for me, a few weeks of depression and then some off tyme. more and more it becomes obvious(well it always was obvious) that i should be medicated. i'm so fucking against medication though. it's a known fact that i have clinical problems. it's a known fact that my brain is primarily to blame for this. it's a known fact that medication is the best way to help. and yet, i'm still stubborn enough to refuse medicating and believe that i can fix myself. anyway. i'm sick of this entry.
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complainey:
hey, i've been jumping around on journals. and i'd just like to say i can really relate to you. for a while i was taking lexapro for disthymia and social anxiety. i stopped taking them shortly after i lost my job cos i can't afford to see my shrink to get a new script. anyway, long story short, i'm kinda fine without them. that or equal to what i would be on them. you might be able to overcome it mentally. here is what works for me if you wanna give it a shot. i make a playlist on my itunes of songs i can't be sad about. then if that doesn't work i go visit toothepastefordinner.com and read the funny drawings. if that doesn't work, i buy scratch off lotto tickets. if that doesn't work, or i lose all my money, i try jumping on my bed or blowing bubbles...those are really a last resort cos i feel like a dork doing them. good luck tho. it could really just be the weather, all of my friends get down around the holidays. also, if you'd like to be friends on here that's cool with me. 
iamtony:
hey, i hope you are feeling better? at least its friday?