voltaire

YESTERDAY
Thank god yesterday is over. I stopped throwing up shortly after I wrote yesterday's journal.... I still feel a little sick today, but loads better than yesterday... in fact, I'm not even afraid to eat stuffed bell peppers again either... I actually want to make them, and not throw them up.... I don't know what was in the one I ate, because I didn't make it, but it wasn't rad the next day....... ..............

TODAY
I have to go back to work tonight, because I need the money. I probably won't make as much as I would If i felt normal, but something is better than nothing.
The worst part is my boss. He is going to charge me double the stage fee for not showing up last night. what a bastard. Either that or I have to make up the shift.... well, It looks like I'm paying double house fees tonight, because I sure as hell am not working an extra day. A crusty punk said I was sexy today, when I went to the store to get more gatorade. I know I have changed alot over the past few years, but it is good to know that I'm still normal as far as I consider"normal" to be. I had to grow up, but I never want to be part of "the herd" know what I mean? In case you were wondering, my favorite gatorade is any of the frost gatorades... particularly the green or white one. the blue and purple ones are okay too.....

TOMORROW
I have something going on, but I don't remember what.... I guess I better fucking figure it out huh? I wanna go hike around in the hills if I still feel okay after tonight's shift.
I wonder what it was that I was supposed to do........ hmm. I need to actually start using the day timer I bought.

IN GENERAL.

I'm so glad I'm not throwing up anymore.

I have two, maybe three shoots this comming week.

I had a wierd dream last night about paris hilton. she tried to pull some high and mighty shit on me and I laughed in her face. she got really mad, but all I could do was laugh.

I need to stop drinking diet coke, and eating junk food again. I'm not getting fat, but I feel run down, and That shit breaks me out after a while.....

I came up with a recipe for roasted bell pepper alfredo sauce. I'll let you know how it turns out.

I'm soooooooooooo glad I'm not throwing up anymore.

My period is very late. I think I'm skipping this moth possibly.... don't get any ideas.... I'm not knocked up. we are pretty sure I can't have kids.

I still haven't paid my cell bill. not because I don't have the money, but because I haven't had the time to run down there and do it. in fact, I still have a check in my wallet, that I haven't even deposited., so I may not have a phone after midnight. but I will tomorrow at some point in time.

If everything goes well, I want to take the entire month of july off.... that would rule.

I'm going to apply for my passport this week. I want to do alot of international traveling next year.

I'm almost totally computer illiterate. some people have that gift, but I just fucking don't. I need someone that can help me with my PC. I am sick of using the dinoputer. I have a laptop and I really want to start using it. But I am retarded when it comes to this stuff.

I just remembered what I'm supposed to do on sunday. I have band practice. but that's at night.....

have I mentioned how glad I am that I'm not throwing up?


well, I'm outa here. ciao
xoxox-V.

-what was the best thing you did this week?
-what do you like best about where you live?
-do you ever want to have kids? why why not?