voltaire

I stayed up late last night watching cowboy bebop.... Now I'm eating leftover chicken picatta that I made last night, and I'm just now waking up..... Saturday was okay, but it sucked at work. I swear to god it was bald gangster night, and they were all rude.... To everyone. So I gave it back. If someone is going to act like a sack of shit, I'm going to treat them like one. I think that's fair. I'm fucking sick of being nice. It was a crappy night, but I had fun hanging out with the girls at least...... and it was alot of fun to play "take the skinheads bowling" when it was my turn to dance for those piles of shit........

YESTERDAY
I met a photographer friend for coffee, made chicken picatta..... the best part about my day was getting up and going to get coffee and bagels, and seeing almost no one out... I was supposed to go to the rustic last night, but I didn't have a drinking vibe, and I didn't feel like being around a bunch of people, so I stayed in and watched movies. It was a pretty chill day. I was supposed to do my hair, but I procrastinated, and now I have to do it today.....

TODAY
I just got up. I don't have any plans except doing my hair, and dropping off a rent check. such is life. I'm wondering why my brother never called. Maybe he didn't have time, maybe his sargeant wouldn't let him. maybe he had to work late. who knows? The weather is really nice out today, and I want to hike in runyon canyon before it gets too late. there's a spot that I know about that only me and my neighbor know about (since we found it together) that I like to go stretch and think at. I'm not looking foreward to doing my hair again. It's alot of work. but I'd rather do it myself since last time I let someone else do it, and I have had nothing but problems. It's all about me being my own personal hairdresser again. I'm looking foreward to dark hair again after the blonde..... well not black but a dark color..... anyway.......
I guess I'm not really up to that much today..... and that's totally okay with me. I'm sitting here listening to The Humpers right now. Next I think it's gonna be the germs. and honestly, that's good enough for me....

TOMORROW
I am getting together with the guitarist from the band I wrote about. I hope it is cool. We'll see, I guess. I hope it works out; it would be alot of fun... tomorrow I'm also going to scout locations for shoots. I have a few in mind, I just need to scope them out further..... I also need to call and set up an appointment with a certain someone. I'll tell you who later....

IN GENERAL

I have been a little depressed lately.I'd say I don't know why, but I do, and It's a million little things all built into one, and would take forever to explain, so I guess I'll stick with the "I don't know" answer.

The weather here has been fabulous. I'm looking foreward to spending a long afternoon on the beach soon.....

I started writing again after five years of not writing anything but journal entries. I actually wrote real prose the other night, but the shitty thing is, that I can't share it with you. I want to make sure It stays mine, because It hasn't been copyrighted yet. It's really good( Ha, I say that now, but next year I'll probably say it's crap) but depressing... yup, I been writin' 'bout mah feelin's......

I saw myself on TV the other night. It was weird. I caught a glimpse of someone on a promo for the Ten network, and I thought to myself, hey that chick looks familliar...and then I saw the rest of the spot, and I said holy shit, that's because it's ME.. I always wondered what happened with the stuff they got that day.... I worked with some rad models that day.... particularly Tall Goddess.... other decent names that were there were emily marilyn and masuimi max... But TG is my fave model...... I wonder what the rest of it turned out like...... It was a fun day.

I'm a huge fan of fine perfume...... I'm also a huge fan of the finest, top quality essential oils..... I like stuff that smells yummy.... I make my own salves and stuff... I just found out where I can get the stuff I need to make hairdressing stuff to, and that makes me smile.... having yummy hair is great.

I really wish I had some decent friends, but aside from maxx and a few other people, I really don't. I am exauhsted of everyone else. I want to crawl into a shell, and stay there for the next ten years, or just sit at the bottom of the ocean and think for a long time.

I have had really disturbing dreams lately. some of them so disturbing I wake up thinking, "what in the hell am I dreaming about that for?" and I am so disturbed that I don't want to go back to sleep, but I am so tired that I can't help it, so I have another bad dream.... sometimes two more........

I want another tattoo. But I be broke right now. oh well.......

I guess I should stop procrastinating, and get some shit done around here.ciao.
xoxox-V.

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