Greetings from San Fransisco, SG... I'm going to have to make this very quick since I am on someone else's coputer...... I'm at sfdeep and niad's house....Sicily Is here too.....
MODELING...........
can be a real pain in the ass..... especially if you are working with pompous assholes that are super full of themselves... Sicily Niad and I went to thye Eric Kroll shoot this afternoon.... we already knew that it might not go over well, since he creeped Sicily out in thier initial meeting.... So we get to his house, and he makes us wait at the front door for like ten minutes before answering. Finally, we go in, and his teenage daughter was there with her friend.... he introduces us, and we start looking at the clothes he has laid out on the coffee table. He starts saying that I was alot skinnier than he expected, and I was like "yeah, I'm pretty small.." Then he asks me what I have under my clothes, and I tell him I have a really large tattoo. He says He likes that idea, and then out of the blue in a really creepy tone of voice asks me if I have big tits under my clothes, to which I replied "No, I'm skinny, skinny people only have big tits if they're fake," He agrees and we start to disscuss the shoot. I start telling him that I'm really not okay with being dominated, since I spent three years as a pro sub, and that I wanted to wear what I brought for the SG shoot, and that I was fine with whatever he wanted to put me in for any extra that we did.... That's when He freaked out and started shouting and swearing in front of his daughter... He said at the top of his lungs, " I don't give a fuck about you , and what you want to do, and I don't give a fuck about suicidegirls, I'm Eric Kroll I do whatever I want, and I don't care about you or what you want to wear "..... As soon as He said he didn't care about me or the site, I knew that there was no way Sicily and I were shooting with him.... He started saying that I was angry, and I told him that I was sorry that me communicating what I was comfortable with in a calm fashion was comming across as angry. I never lost my temper. which I think pissed him off some more. I was not about to stoop to his level, and scream curse words at him infront of his kid..... So we left. I think what pissed him off was that I wasn't going to let him humiliate me. He's really into that shit. and I won't have it. He was a manipulative asshole. What a bastard. I don't think he likes women. I'm really glad I didn't shoot with him. If the initial meeting was that bad, then I don't even want to know how creepy he would have been in the shoot when I was naked..... okay, enough. all that drama and I hadn't even had my morning coffee yet........
BEING BACK AT HOME
Is cool.... I suppose. I would never move back here. It's cool to visit, but I like L.A. better.... But yeah, It's nice to see my friends and my family and all that stuff.....
MY HOT BEST FRIEND
and makeout buddy who is also a model is in NYC right now... I miss her.... I told her what happened this morning, and she was glad I walked out on the shoot. She rules. We buy each other cool stuff like panties and stockings and cute modeling outfits and then model them for each other ... I really can't wait to see her when I get home.... I miss my cat too.....
well I'm off to eat yummy thai food with Sicily, Niad, and sfdeep...... yum, I love thai food...... good god, I'm starving.....
ciao!
xoxox-Voltaire
-When was your last altercation/confrontaition with someone, and how did it go?
-what do you miss most about home when you travel?
- have you ever been tied up for fetish or sexual purposes? did you like it?
MODELING...........
can be a real pain in the ass..... especially if you are working with pompous assholes that are super full of themselves... Sicily Niad and I went to thye Eric Kroll shoot this afternoon.... we already knew that it might not go over well, since he creeped Sicily out in thier initial meeting.... So we get to his house, and he makes us wait at the front door for like ten minutes before answering. Finally, we go in, and his teenage daughter was there with her friend.... he introduces us, and we start looking at the clothes he has laid out on the coffee table. He starts saying that I was alot skinnier than he expected, and I was like "yeah, I'm pretty small.." Then he asks me what I have under my clothes, and I tell him I have a really large tattoo. He says He likes that idea, and then out of the blue in a really creepy tone of voice asks me if I have big tits under my clothes, to which I replied "No, I'm skinny, skinny people only have big tits if they're fake," He agrees and we start to disscuss the shoot. I start telling him that I'm really not okay with being dominated, since I spent three years as a pro sub, and that I wanted to wear what I brought for the SG shoot, and that I was fine with whatever he wanted to put me in for any extra that we did.... That's when He freaked out and started shouting and swearing in front of his daughter... He said at the top of his lungs, " I don't give a fuck about you , and what you want to do, and I don't give a fuck about suicidegirls, I'm Eric Kroll I do whatever I want, and I don't care about you or what you want to wear "..... As soon as He said he didn't care about me or the site, I knew that there was no way Sicily and I were shooting with him.... He started saying that I was angry, and I told him that I was sorry that me communicating what I was comfortable with in a calm fashion was comming across as angry. I never lost my temper. which I think pissed him off some more. I was not about to stoop to his level, and scream curse words at him infront of his kid..... So we left. I think what pissed him off was that I wasn't going to let him humiliate me. He's really into that shit. and I won't have it. He was a manipulative asshole. What a bastard. I don't think he likes women. I'm really glad I didn't shoot with him. If the initial meeting was that bad, then I don't even want to know how creepy he would have been in the shoot when I was naked..... okay, enough. all that drama and I hadn't even had my morning coffee yet........
BEING BACK AT HOME
Is cool.... I suppose. I would never move back here. It's cool to visit, but I like L.A. better.... But yeah, It's nice to see my friends and my family and all that stuff.....
MY HOT BEST FRIEND
and makeout buddy who is also a model is in NYC right now... I miss her.... I told her what happened this morning, and she was glad I walked out on the shoot. She rules. We buy each other cool stuff like panties and stockings and cute modeling outfits and then model them for each other ... I really can't wait to see her when I get home.... I miss my cat too.....
well I'm off to eat yummy thai food with Sicily, Niad, and sfdeep...... yum, I love thai food...... good god, I'm starving.....
ciao!
xoxox-Voltaire
-When was your last altercation/confrontaition with someone, and how did it go?
-what do you miss most about home when you travel?
- have you ever been tied up for fetish or sexual purposes? did you like it?
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With a band member, strangely enough he understood my logic.
-what do you miss most about home when you travel?
My own bed, and record collection.
- have you ever been tied up for fetish or sexual purposes? did you like it?
Yeah, a few times, it was fun.