vixennyx

They say it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
Right now I feel I've lost the greatest love I'll ever have in my life for no logical reason besides horrendous timing. And it's not fair. And I see nothing good about it whatsoever.
Of course I cherish every moment we spent together, and of course I've learned from it. But I just can't fathom how this has happened.
I don't know if anyone else has ever felt as strongly as I did about him, has ever had such a connection with anyone just by merely looking into their eyes and feeling nothing else mattered. Nothing else existed. Just our love, which we then believed to be true and infinite.
How is one supposed to get over losing the one person you would ever want to spend your life with? The one person who promised you their heart until eternity? The one person who fit every aspect of perfection? The epitome of everything you'd ever looked for in another human being...
It's not fair.
How can true love- something said to last forever- die?
I can't bring myself to believe this has happened and it's absolutely destroying me.
I don't want to let go, but he leaves me no alternative.
He gave up.
HE GAVE UP.
Because it wasn't the right time for us.
And now it never will be.
He was not only my heart, but my best friend.
Now I have neither.
Fuck love.
Fuck this hole of my absent heart.
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: the song he wrote for me...