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i doubt that, hon, but thanx!

yur welcome for the words, and if you could please send them to me, cause i wrote them oiff hand and i forgot to copy them...thanks

barely alive
working that nine to five
and at five to nine
preparing for your second wind of work
sick of ignorant people, that pass off as jerks
and get away with it
a heart is not a toy so dont play with it
a child is never a burden, so stay with it
regrets are what my book is filled with
and i pray with it
on my knees
sacrificial scars on my arms
i used to bleed
now i plea
with those that still do
im not writing this because i hate you
i love you, and im trying to reinstate you
inject you back into my life
this time, dont get so hostile you feel to pick up the kinfe,
razor or whatever the fuck it is you use to abuse yourself
cause i think its become a chaser you use to amuse yourself
no need to put down the grin
you wear on your skin
lying to me wont make me your friend
i need devotion
and world of truth
this isnt eye for an eye
im the paste for your tooth
im here to clean you up
ive never seen you so corrupt
and more than ever im here to abrubt
the sickness that sits on both shoulders
days seem even colder
i guess i wear, wear a grin too
cause this isnt even close to what i told her- ReVeRie

[Edited on Mar 31, 2004 9:25PM]

Hey, hope you're doing okay.

Virginia is, um, average? The weather can never make up its mind during the late fall and early spring. It's hot, then cold, then warm, the freezing... you get the picture. There are some good points, though. There's the beach, some pretty good concerts that roll through, the mountains on the opposite side of the state from me. I don't know. I complain about it a lot, but I must admit that I love it here.

Anyway, like you said, cheers to twins!

damnit, get your love together!

Love is your weakness eh? You and me both girlie... Tho I guess being an artist I can appreciate the pain and joy it brings loving so deeply as it's from those emotions most artists draw their inspiration. *hugs* I hope you're doing ok

It's the kind of update people get for bugging me so much to update when I don't have anything important to say.

But damn do I love your words. It's been a long time since I've known someone who's language is so natural and comes so easily from their mind and is filled with such imagery and emotion. *little sigh*

Why do you live so far away?

Hey, what's going on? Sorry to hear about work being shitty. Hope you're doing okay.

Hey!

I'll try not to.

*hugs* it' ll be allright...

I worked in a bar too down in st louis for a while just becareful with who you trust. As long as you do well that's all that matters..

I have journal I keep elsewhere if you ever want to read about moi =)

hmm the neil diamond song "forever in blue jeans" springs to mind. good point on focusing on whats important to you. its so easy to set goals and then follow them through (school, work) and then look up one day 5 years later and going "whoa whoa" we get so lost in the trees we forget theres a forest.

its all about neil diamond
get sleep.
good luck!

thanks for the skull heart it made my day. so if you are so damned busy when am i ever going to get to meet you? hmmm? sorry i didn;t make SGB, i'm pretty damn busy too, but nothing to compare with you. hope you're well. ttfn

your heart? for me? thank you
and even if the guy was feeding you a line, listen to it, he is right you wil get by it may take some time and effort, but you will make it

damn you- im taking the day off- i freakin deserve it

I think I may be able to get out of work early and catch the show. I'm gonna keep my fingers crossed on that one. I need to get tickets before they sellout.

You are both retarded! I mean, you both show that you love each other... just do it woman!!! Damn!

Sanity is definitely more important than responsibilty.

I just joined myspace(finally) like you suggested. I can't seem to find you to add you as a friend. I'm probably retarded or something.

I wish I had advice to give. Mostly I just have questions, but this is some heavy shit that is going to take significant effort to calculate a plan. It sounds like you need to restructure your life. A while back, I threw my entire life away to go back to school. I moved back home so I can focus and school and not work. I barely work enough to take care of my kids, gas, food, cigarettes... The essentials, you know? I've learned how to make the most of the little income I have...it's amazing how little I can actually survive on.

Anyway, it's 5am and I know this isn't making a damn bit of sense, but I guess what I'm getting at is that if you want your life to get better, you need a plan. You have to assess your situation and design guidelines to follow in order to get out of the downward spiral you have described.

Just remember, you aren't the only one that is going through it, but you don't want to be there very long. It's easier to stand up while you are still on your feet than it is after you've crashed face first into the dirt.


Don't ever give up. I have fought for every single thing I've ever accomplished in my life. No lies or exaggeration. Fight fight fight. This might sound bad, but it is reality for me: it will never get better, but you will learn to take it easier and deal with it quicker.

I don't have any advice on love. Love is too painful to add to the load I already have on my shoulders. I can't trust my decisions about women anyway. The ones I like are the ones that are bad for me.

Anyway, you look like a cutie. You shouldn't have any problems finding guys. Finding the right one is the problem. Just don't get hurt by the wrong one while you are trying to find Mr. Right. To be blunt, don't get pregnant! If you do, just make sure he has plenty of cash for child support. There are too many deadbeats out there not taking care of their kids.

Wow....I need to stop....now my brain is going nuts.

You might think about joining the group Righteous Spawn. It's a group for SG Parents. Can't hurt.