vivid

the chips are down, the cards are bad, the hand is delt and you tap out.
Out out out.

Arg, there is feeling down, there is feeling down and out, and then there is this. -- and the day started out well enough.
Just one of the points, I guess.
Tonight was a night where it should have been smiles and adoration, but instead it was jeering sneering and leering. Looming. Brooding. Hissing and Pissin.
Rawr.


Im in the mood where I want to lay down and sleep till Im about 30. Maybe things will be easier then.
I cant believe -these- are my prime years.
Im in the mood where Im thinking too much and everything is telling me to run from everything and everyone.
God save the Queen, in this lonely kingdom.


Dear Optimism, come back. We miss you.
xoxo



------------------ on a financial note : HERE is the place to check for a fuckload of ebay auctions. My roommate and I are cleaning house, and mine is going towards the dental work. I still have more to add over the next few days, so check back.
Boys : I dont think the skirts are gonna look as good on you... at least shave, ok?




EDIT TO ADD ://
God save the Queen, in this lonely kingdom.
and as the sun sets on yet another day ... the kingdom gets slightly less lonely.

A photo is worth a thousand [and one] smiles. The power to fix something without even being there.

One more bet, one more hand -- maybe Im not down and out yet.