Well, no real updates for a while. I guess its because I'm still getting used to people being able to read into my thoughts and everything. It makes me uncomfortable to an extent, but if it was that bad, I'd just not post. I guess it also strikes fear into me that I'll say somethign wrong because I'm too used to building these superficial, long term friendships that end up being negative on all aspects instead of actually trying to build a friendship thats long lasting. I don't know what I'm building now, but I hope its the latter.
Also of note: My libido, for all rights and purposes, is on standby. I'd love to think of this as a bad thing, but part of me is quite fine with it. Maybe I'll reproduce by budding.
So my libido has all but disappeared, but I still want emotional things. Its odd, because I'm giving off a sort of desperation which has had interesting repurcussions such as my male friend believe I am attracted to him. Granted, I have a flirtacious personality by nature, but I'm not attracted to him. Just emotionally desperate.
I also figured out that I should not get romantically involved with anyone I actually care about. Hypocritical I know, but I hate to hurt my friends and those I care about so much that in a romantic context, it might strike a serious blow to my psyche.
The people above us had sex...again. My roommate and I knocked on their door. No answer, though apparently they fuck with the door unlocked.
Recent acquisitions:
Matisyahu
Nintendo DS
Lunar Legend 2: Eternal Blue
These have made me happy, and have given me a goal. I'm going to collect and play all the final fantasy series (sans XI). Kind of crazy, but I think I can do it.
For the record, I'm really actually unhappy now. I can't quite place my finger on why, but its a general unhappiness that I dislike.
This entry started out as being long and involved, but now I can hardly manage to place two sentences together.
Have I mentioned I'm missing Paris? It was really odd, because I was sitting in class, and suddenly thinking of going to Rue de la Mouffetard this weekend. Yea, sure. I also miss all the cool people I met there and the wonderful book/record shops. Ohio really isn't much to compare.
Also of note: My libido, for all rights and purposes, is on standby. I'd love to think of this as a bad thing, but part of me is quite fine with it. Maybe I'll reproduce by budding.
So my libido has all but disappeared, but I still want emotional things. Its odd, because I'm giving off a sort of desperation which has had interesting repurcussions such as my male friend believe I am attracted to him. Granted, I have a flirtacious personality by nature, but I'm not attracted to him. Just emotionally desperate.
I also figured out that I should not get romantically involved with anyone I actually care about. Hypocritical I know, but I hate to hurt my friends and those I care about so much that in a romantic context, it might strike a serious blow to my psyche.
The people above us had sex...again. My roommate and I knocked on their door. No answer, though apparently they fuck with the door unlocked.
Recent acquisitions:
Matisyahu
Nintendo DS
Lunar Legend 2: Eternal Blue
These have made me happy, and have given me a goal. I'm going to collect and play all the final fantasy series (sans XI). Kind of crazy, but I think I can do it.
For the record, I'm really actually unhappy now. I can't quite place my finger on why, but its a general unhappiness that I dislike.
This entry started out as being long and involved, but now I can hardly manage to place two sentences together.
Have I mentioned I'm missing Paris? It was really odd, because I was sitting in class, and suddenly thinking of going to Rue de la Mouffetard this weekend. Yea, sure. I also miss all the cool people I met there and the wonderful book/record shops. Ohio really isn't much to compare.
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Oh and i LOVE matisyahu
[Edited on Mar 04, 2006 3:10PM]