Wow, long time no talk huh?
Good reason for that though, nothing new and exciting has been happening. I've been living my failed existence in a virtual world, the only place I can feel like a 'winner'.
Anyway, the big reason for this post is that there has finally been an event in my life that might actually propel me forward for once, instead of backwards. (Or at least I hope so!) And while small in some respects, it's a huge step forward for Randy and I.
As some of you know, we've spent the last 4-5 years living with other people. In 2000 and 2001, Randy and I lived together on our own, but unfortunately a new nasty neighbor ruined it for us so we ended up moving out. The past 5 years have been total hell and I was at a point in my life where I just wanted to throw my hands up in the air and say "I give up!" Someone hit the reset button ffs!
My job seeking ventures have even went awry. I've turned down some really awesome opportunities because of my inability to believe in myself. I have a hard time believing I'm a worthy person when the only thing I seem really good at, are those things that don't matter in the real world. (ie: video games, my grades in school, etc) And while I could kick myself in the ass repeatedly for giving up those opportunities, I have to pick up the pieces and learn from those mistakes.
That aside, the reason for my whole elation and post that probably makes no sense whatsoever: We're finally moving out to be on our own once again!
The place that we're moving into is 'different', you could say. Most people would probably look at it and think a variety of different things. It looks awfully small from the outside not to mention it's half faux stone and stucco...lol. Anyway, hopefully we'll be signing the lease on Sunday and all will be right in my world. I'll definitely have to get some pics!
I hope this is just step 1 or even 1/2 a step to getting our lives back on track. I know it'll certainly help me by having a place I can call my own again. I'm not sure when I'll be losing my internet connection, but it'll be soon no doubt.
It'll take a few days to get re-adjusted to living on my own again, not to mention all of the fun things you get to do when you move - like cleaning, moving junk all over until you get it where it needs to be, gettin cable and internet back up - and all that good stuff.
So, I'll talk to you all again soon and hopefully I'll be able to start posting more since I think I may decide to live in the real world, for once.
Good reason for that though, nothing new and exciting has been happening. I've been living my failed existence in a virtual world, the only place I can feel like a 'winner'.
Anyway, the big reason for this post is that there has finally been an event in my life that might actually propel me forward for once, instead of backwards. (Or at least I hope so!) And while small in some respects, it's a huge step forward for Randy and I.
As some of you know, we've spent the last 4-5 years living with other people. In 2000 and 2001, Randy and I lived together on our own, but unfortunately a new nasty neighbor ruined it for us so we ended up moving out. The past 5 years have been total hell and I was at a point in my life where I just wanted to throw my hands up in the air and say "I give up!" Someone hit the reset button ffs!
My job seeking ventures have even went awry. I've turned down some really awesome opportunities because of my inability to believe in myself. I have a hard time believing I'm a worthy person when the only thing I seem really good at, are those things that don't matter in the real world. (ie: video games, my grades in school, etc) And while I could kick myself in the ass repeatedly for giving up those opportunities, I have to pick up the pieces and learn from those mistakes.
That aside, the reason for my whole elation and post that probably makes no sense whatsoever: We're finally moving out to be on our own once again!
The place that we're moving into is 'different', you could say. Most people would probably look at it and think a variety of different things. It looks awfully small from the outside not to mention it's half faux stone and stucco...lol. Anyway, hopefully we'll be signing the lease on Sunday and all will be right in my world. I'll definitely have to get some pics!
I hope this is just step 1 or even 1/2 a step to getting our lives back on track. I know it'll certainly help me by having a place I can call my own again. I'm not sure when I'll be losing my internet connection, but it'll be soon no doubt.
It'll take a few days to get re-adjusted to living on my own again, not to mention all of the fun things you get to do when you move - like cleaning, moving junk all over until you get it where it needs to be, gettin cable and internet back up - and all that good stuff.
So, I'll talk to you all again soon and hopefully I'll be able to start posting more since I think I may decide to live in the real world, for once.
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