Second day of happily unemployed bliss. Alright, so it isn't all kittens and rainbows. Every paycheck-less Friday will be a painful reminder of that which I once had and could have had. In the greater scheme of things, I think I made the right decision. No more putting myself in possible harms way. Plus I can get some loose ends tied up with myself before trying the real world out again.
I'm just itching for a job that lets me wear what I want and where tattoos and piercings are considered an outward extension of your personality. Around here, I'd be lucky to get a job that lets me have pink hair let alone a tattoo. I wish I was in that "alternative" loop somehow. I'll find a job that's perfect for me. They say good things come to those who wait, and though I've been waiting some time, I think good things will be coming my way soon.
Admittedly, I think perhaps I'm falling back into my depressive state. Why I continue to post here (or elsewhere for that matter) is beginning to not make any sense. I know of a few people who read my posts, SG members and not, but sometimes it feels like I'm just typing to give my fingers some exercise.
Anyway, I'm starting to make decisions without thinking about the consequences first and I can't seem to get off this computer. Not good considering I'm trying to lose about ooohhh, 30 pounds. Yes, 30 pounds. Everyone says I don't look like I need to lose that much and well, scientifically speaking I should lose those 30 pounds though. According to many websites at my height of 5'7", I should supposedly weigh between 120 and 160 pounds. That's a huge range! I'd like be around the 130 mark since I'm a little bit higher on the spectrum there.
I always get down on myself because I see girls who are a bit shorter then I am and weigh less then I do, but look 'bigger'. I guess I am a bit more muscular then most girls since I played field hockey in high school, hence more weight, but I still want Reagan's barely there tummy!
Curvy girls do it better. My boobs so don't fit in that bra.
Wanna go a round?
Must get that tummy!
I really wish I had a steadier hand so I could take better (and more interesting) pictures with my good camera. But since all I do is shake and make the pics all blurry when taking them of myself, you'll have to settle for my crappy Clie ones.
Remember me talking about making decisions quickly? Well, I decided to give myself some bangs on a spur of the moment decison. Frankly, I think they look uber cute and I don't care if they make me look like I'm 12. You can see my crappy dye job too...still pisses me off it only lightened half a shade.
This weekend, I think I'm going to try and lighten it some more and throw some pink streaks in there.
Chuuhhhhby cheeks!
Fraggle Rock - Rocked!
So yeah, still working on that whole submitting my set thing. I didn't think finding a location would be so damn difficult! Even more difficult is finding a location that goes well with the theme of the set. Looks like I may need to dig deeper and really get those creative juices flowing because I'm determined to have my first set accepted!
And given my perfectionist attitude, I can't submit anything less!
Call me stupid or tell me I'm jumping the gun, but I made a MySpace account for when I officially go pink. Firstly, because in case of some freak accident someone else got the name, I'd be royally pissed. Secondly, I guess its more for documenting my SG journey of sorts since this is something I want to do so badly, even if others don't think I can do or should do it. Oh wells....Feel free to add me on there if you'd like.
xo♥xo
I'm just itching for a job that lets me wear what I want and where tattoos and piercings are considered an outward extension of your personality. Around here, I'd be lucky to get a job that lets me have pink hair let alone a tattoo. I wish I was in that "alternative" loop somehow. I'll find a job that's perfect for me. They say good things come to those who wait, and though I've been waiting some time, I think good things will be coming my way soon.
Admittedly, I think perhaps I'm falling back into my depressive state. Why I continue to post here (or elsewhere for that matter) is beginning to not make any sense. I know of a few people who read my posts, SG members and not, but sometimes it feels like I'm just typing to give my fingers some exercise.
Anyway, I'm starting to make decisions without thinking about the consequences first and I can't seem to get off this computer. Not good considering I'm trying to lose about ooohhh, 30 pounds. Yes, 30 pounds. Everyone says I don't look like I need to lose that much and well, scientifically speaking I should lose those 30 pounds though. According to many websites at my height of 5'7", I should supposedly weigh between 120 and 160 pounds. That's a huge range! I'd like be around the 130 mark since I'm a little bit higher on the spectrum there.
I always get down on myself because I see girls who are a bit shorter then I am and weigh less then I do, but look 'bigger'. I guess I am a bit more muscular then most girls since I played field hockey in high school, hence more weight, but I still want Reagan's barely there tummy!
Curvy girls do it better. My boobs so don't fit in that bra.
Wanna go a round?
Must get that tummy!
I really wish I had a steadier hand so I could take better (and more interesting) pictures with my good camera. But since all I do is shake and make the pics all blurry when taking them of myself, you'll have to settle for my crappy Clie ones.
Remember me talking about making decisions quickly? Well, I decided to give myself some bangs on a spur of the moment decison. Frankly, I think they look uber cute and I don't care if they make me look like I'm 12. You can see my crappy dye job too...still pisses me off it only lightened half a shade.
This weekend, I think I'm going to try and lighten it some more and throw some pink streaks in there.
Chuuhhhhby cheeks!
Fraggle Rock - Rocked!
So yeah, still working on that whole submitting my set thing. I didn't think finding a location would be so damn difficult! Even more difficult is finding a location that goes well with the theme of the set. Looks like I may need to dig deeper and really get those creative juices flowing because I'm determined to have my first set accepted!
And given my perfectionist attitude, I can't submit anything less!
Call me stupid or tell me I'm jumping the gun, but I made a MySpace account for when I officially go pink. Firstly, because in case of some freak accident someone else got the name, I'd be royally pissed. Secondly, I guess its more for documenting my SG journey of sorts since this is something I want to do so badly, even if others don't think I can do or should do it. Oh wells....Feel free to add me on there if you'd like.
xo♥xo
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Ahh i am under Sativa. hmm not a bad spot
Don't worry about losing weight, just focus on being healthy. Your body will sort itself out.
Not that it needs to change at all!