Why does August always depress me?
I guess I feel stuck in work, not in school. Have nothing to put my mind to work on.
Just read and think about summers growing up.... I miss my Mom and my brother and my house and my life as a kid and teenager. I guess problems seemed insignificant then to me now.
I am constantly dreaming about people I knew in DC dying. I wake up and realize I am in florida. I've lived here for a year and sometimes I wake up and don't know where I am exactly.
I guess it's just my subconscious bubbling up with images and feelings about people that I haven't thought about in awhile...I guess I didn't realize or refused to realize how close those people were in the development of my personality and experiences.
I certainly don't want to be back in DC now, I mean living there. All my old friends are still doing the same shit, or worse are still trying to find themselves. or into drugs, like hardcore.
I like my life here, I would change nothing I've done. Change is inevitable...
I've always known who I was. I'm 23 and have almost got my Masters. And then I'll have my doctorate. Did college in four years. I don't know what I'm trying to say. Guess I miss being a kid. Although I still consider myself a big kid in alot of ways. Guess I miss being taken care of. Guess I miss bullshitting around. Although I am living my dream and Scotty does take good care of me.
I would change nothing about my life just wish I could change a few things back...or move a few people forward.
I guess I feel stuck in work, not in school. Have nothing to put my mind to work on.
Just read and think about summers growing up.... I miss my Mom and my brother and my house and my life as a kid and teenager. I guess problems seemed insignificant then to me now.
I am constantly dreaming about people I knew in DC dying. I wake up and realize I am in florida. I've lived here for a year and sometimes I wake up and don't know where I am exactly.
I guess it's just my subconscious bubbling up with images and feelings about people that I haven't thought about in awhile...I guess I didn't realize or refused to realize how close those people were in the development of my personality and experiences.
I certainly don't want to be back in DC now, I mean living there. All my old friends are still doing the same shit, or worse are still trying to find themselves. or into drugs, like hardcore.
I like my life here, I would change nothing I've done. Change is inevitable...
I've always known who I was. I'm 23 and have almost got my Masters. And then I'll have my doctorate. Did college in four years. I don't know what I'm trying to say. Guess I miss being a kid. Although I still consider myself a big kid in alot of ways. Guess I miss being taken care of. Guess I miss bullshitting around. Although I am living my dream and Scotty does take good care of me.
I would change nothing about my life just wish I could change a few things back...or move a few people forward.
You have to see Mike and Kathy's place in Philly. It's a palace. I'm going up there again this weekend for some museum with an open bar on friday and a Halestorm show on saturday. It's going to be dope. Last time I was there we saw a tranny at the bar and Mike and Alex were so uncomfortable. And I threw a 3 foot tall christmas tree that I found in an alley at Mike. That's all I really remember.
My place in Baltimore is sweet, too. I still don't have a bed, but it's not like I really need one right now, okokokokokokok. My job is good, I'm doing projects from start to finish by myself now. I'll get insurance and paid days off at the end of August.
If you go to the Maryland alumni website and search for Blunck's name in the directory, it is suspiciously absent. Hmmm. I'm not really trying to hang out with that dude anymore. Too much lying.
You should see the movie Murderball, read the book Vice Dos and Don'ts, and listen to Felt 2: Tribute to Lisa Bonet.
PS. You never lived in DC, stop fronting.