violetred

god...starting over again

what makes me "not wife material"

i am not a drunk. i am not doing drugs. i have a job. i have transportation. you can see my pictures if you need proof that i am beautiful...

but somehow...guys think i am not good enough. it makes me want to die.

tonight, this asshole dumped me. after admitting that he cheated on me the previous night with some girl he knows "from the mall." i am fucking mortified.

let me start off by saying that, even though i have said some kind things about him in my past few journals, he does not have a job, or a driver's license. how does a person like this dump someone like me? i must be fucking fat, hideous, or somehow un-loveable.

where do i go from here? homeless people?

this is just about worse than Rob...and worse than the doctor. i feel like i can't trust men...at all...anymore.




amy looks so damn good in this video. it's hard to imagine any man would turn her down.