vinylgypsy

"Everyday is exactly the same..."

why is it depression always creeps in late at night when i have no one to talk to? i miss having someone to call on and empty my thoughts to during these down times.

i'm not ashamed to admit i've cried myself to sleep many times like some sort of hurt child. am i fool to be so sensitive? or am i just exhausted from so much of the same shit that continues to haunt me and tug at my heart and soul for answers.

i can say that those of you out there with someone, do yourself a favor and hold them tight and if you love them for god's sake tell them because there are a million of us out here in the cold darkness that would do anything to have what you have. never take love for granted..i've been on the outside looking in on the fortunate ones more than being one myself.

then again perhaps that is nothing more than the desperate plea of someone deep in depression and lonelyness.

i need a change so bad..
i've built up the nerve to try and make peace but still i sit here unsure of where to go next.

do all feel this way? or is it just me?
inside i feel it's all in my head and i've just given myself far too much time to think about these things.

what have i become?