vinyle

Ok, think I might be back to normal now. I had a little emotional breakdown yesterday. Everything going on just got to me. It takes a lot for me to get to that point. I always feel so selfish and like my thoughts are so minor and insignificant compared to everything else after I have those.

* Glad about the divorce, I don't feel that way towards him anymore, but I do feel lonely sometimes. I mean I do'nt want prince charming or anyone to come riding along, but it be nice if there was someone at least sometimes.

* totally tired of newlywed talk. office full of newlyweds yesterday with their faux perfect little lives planning a field trip to the build a bear store so the new hubbers could record "I love you (insert name here) into the bears. Even when I'm at the peak of in love I can't stand stuff like that.

* Had a couple of drinks last night and wrote 5 poems/thoughts. I haven't written anything in so long.

* suffering from a severe case of the wants, even though I don't know what all the wants are.

* My friend is leaving with his ship today to help the Katrina people. Wish I could go help and do something productive.
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Ok, so my heart still hurts, but I'm going to smile today. It's Thursday, 3 day weekend almost here. Have a good day everyone. Kisses to you all. Laceyglove wrote me the best song yesterday and made me cry. Thanks sissy.