vinyle

I'm getting something off my chest today that I"ve been dealing with for awhile and was almost over. That is until my friend began bringing it up again and emailing this person so now I am feeling back to square one. Hopefully an online confessional/farewell will help me once and for all.

Last year I had an "experience" with someone. Relationship might be too big of a word. I had great chemistry with this person, we had the best arguments and the biggest fun. I could totally just be my old crazy self and it didn't matter. After changing who I was and becoming alot more subdued in my marriage, this person helped me rediscover who I was and the person I am growning into. I worked very closely with him and enjoyed the time I was able to spend with him. Due to crappy circumstances, he moved to the other side of the country. He would call me still and email until I decided that it hurt too much to hear from him. It has really taken the better part of a year to get over it. My friend thinks that she is helping me by inviting this person to her wedding, talking about him, and emailing him on her own. This has brought up the feelings all over again. After a week of being depressed about it, I think I might really be OK now. It was a learning experience and for that I'll always be thankful to you,Caesar.

On a lighter note: It's Friday, my sister is coming to visit, the sun finally decided to come out, I'm wearing my awesome new glasses and vintage 1940's shirt and think I look pretty damn cute today. Happy Friday!